I am certain that I am a lesbian, as I am attracted to women and nonbinary people that consider themselves sapphic, but regardless of expression (masc, fem, or andro). I'm not REPULSED by dating men, I'm just indifferent, though back when I identified as lesbian before, I hated the idea and thought that people being straight was being shoved down my throat as all I heard was "you just haven't met the right guy yet" and all the girls I hung out with only liked men and talked constantly about men so I just felt alone.

Now, though, I'm just indifferent, as I said. They don't really attract me, but I do like male characters a lot platonically and connect with them so when I find a good MLM ship between two male characters I like, I think of myself and my girlfriend.

For example, I don't really wanna be WITH the hot heroic guy in a movie or show, but I do wanna be him and get the girl or whatever. (I'm comfortable being a girl and don't currently fit in with other gender labels though, I am not trans FtM)

Every time I got with a dude, it felt more like I had a platonic bond I could share my interests with at best, or just a guy I could show off so I could talk with the straight and bi ladies about having a boyfriend too. I, to be honest, felt bad for them because they seemed so sweet and I would be turning them down, so I decided to give them a chance and I was convinced I "needed" a man because my straight/bi girl friends would say "I need a man!!" when they were single.

And people could never relate to me, because I'd always wanna talk about the first attractive people that came to my mind: women. They would wanna talk about handsome boys at school, guy actors and characters, hunks, gay romance, etc. but I'd always like to talk about lesbian romance, woman actresses and characters, the pretty girls at school but "too bad they're straight". I'd mainly find sapphic girls I had a deep connection to attractive, though I can form a crush on almost any girl I'm close with at least a little bit and I'm super romantic.

Boys, in my mind, as in guy characters, were always fun to tease, whereas lady characters always seemed like actual beautiful people I'd crush on and get into relationships with.

So yeah, I've concluded that I'm a lesbian. Is this a "canon event"? Can many lesbians relate??

Pleeaseee I know people don't like Kamp Koral but COME ON THIS IS SO GAY I SHIP IT SO HARD IN THIS EPISODE/SPINOFF!!!!! Does this count as representation of MLM relationships?? It can be interpreted as a silly friendly/platonic relationship but I don't see it that way...

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I speak English, I'm learning my heritage language Norwegian.

I’m just curious 🧐 I like precision in my subtitling and obsess over the specifics of certain words, could be my autism, could not be.

Go as crazy as you want (within reason). Go as stupid as you want.

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cross-posted from: https://thelemmy.club/post/45645099

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!bekjennelser_no@thelemmy.club - confessions

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!bekjennelser_no@thelemmy.club - confessions

I'll admit, doing a bit of self-reflection, I don't actively bully others but it would kinda make sense to have covert narcissism because my dad is kind of narcissistic, he is said to be like that by many people. My mom is said to have signs of BPD but of course, she wouldn't realize or think she has it, so she would not get diagnosed. Also, she can change emotions on a whim.

I think, not self-diagnosing.

I always have to have the spotlight due to being dismissed and bullied constantly. I'm an attention whore who constantly looks for validation from every little thing and NEEDS to post something to get my thoughts heard and talk to someone so they listen to me and I have their attention.

I'm autistic which also could have something to do with it, and I always get the "narcissistic" or "attention seeking" personality in quizzes though I know these quizzes are bullshit.

I get very depressed when I'm ignored.

I can't bear to think of myself in a negative light nor work on myself barely because it makes me depressed and I'm so "addicted" to good times. I only like people who treat me well, anyone else is treating me badly and I see them as a bully or a bad person.

I was violent when I was younger, questioned authority and rules. Now I'm not because I see that people logically must have the same feelings as me and are human like me, not side characters or NPCs, so I don't hurt them. I threw chairs in kindergarten due to anger issues not caring who it hurt and struggled with empathy.

Sometimes, if I've been through something bad, I can empathize with them, but I often struggle empathizing unless I'm in the right mood or moment, especially with TV shows because I know they're not real.

I empathize only really with people who "earned" it, and I really am a bad person.

People have said I feel remorse, but not guilt I think.

So, yeah... my Dad is a narcissist. It would make sense if I was a narcissist who hides it well somehow. But no one would believe me since I hide it so well, I just seem like a hyperactive attention seeker who is somewhat extroverted.

Mom has said to have BPD traits but she is hyperempathetic. I am also a lot like my dad and he only cares about people he can get something out of who give him attention somewhat. He only empathizes with people he cares about too.