I am certain that I am a lesbian, as I am attracted to women and nonbinary people that consider themselves sapphic, but regardless of expression (masc, fem, or andro). I'm not REPULSED by dating men, I'm just indifferent, though back when I identified as lesbian before, I hated the idea and thought that people being straight was being shoved down my throat as all I heard was "you just haven't met the right guy yet" and all the girls I hung out with only liked men and talked constantly about men so I just felt alone.

Now, though, I'm just indifferent, as I said. They don't really attract me, but I do like male characters a lot platonically and connect with them so when I find a good MLM ship between two male characters I like, I think of myself and my girlfriend.

For example, I don't really wanna be WITH the hot heroic guy in a movie or show, but I do wanna be him and get the girl or whatever. (I'm comfortable being a girl and don't currently fit in with other gender labels though, I am not trans FtM)

Every time I got with a dude, it felt more like I had a platonic bond I could share my interests with at best, or just a guy I could show off so I could talk with the straight and bi ladies about having a boyfriend too. I, to be honest, felt bad for them because they seemed so sweet and I would be turning them down, so I decided to give them a chance and I was convinced I "needed" a man because my straight/bi girl friends would say "I need a man!!" when they were single.

And people could never relate to me, because I'd always wanna talk about the first attractive people that came to my mind: women. They would wanna talk about handsome boys at school, guy actors and characters, hunks, gay romance, etc. but I'd always like to talk about lesbian romance, woman actresses and characters, the pretty girls at school but "too bad they're straight". I'd mainly find sapphic girls I had a deep connection to attractive, though I can form a crush on almost any girl I'm close with at least a little bit and I'm super romantic.

Boys, in my mind, as in guy characters, were always fun to tease, whereas lady characters always seemed like actual beautiful people I'd crush on and get into relationships with.

So yeah, I've concluded that I'm a lesbian. Is this a "canon event"? Can many lesbians relate??

But then sometimes mom do the opposite and praises him then belittles me... but then bro ignores that part and still thinks mom favors me...

My apologies to the many folk both in an out of the us that hate the stuff just pervading anywhere but im watching the talking on tv and it hit me. You could have an rpg for being a part of the administration. Like working in it. Im thinking I could lean heavily on paranoia rules. I will call it bluster and bullshit.

so i went on reddit, yes, i know it’s a cesspool, a sewer full of horrible people, but there was this one person whose story i was gonna read, their life’s story and needing advice on how to make friends. but when i clicked on their profile out of curiosity, i saw they had like karma in the -30s. i thought this would either be a troll or someone who was right and just got downvoted because redditors are stupid. turns out, they are, and she got upvoted a bunch for her opinions in a transphobic echo chamber.

she kept saying that trans women don’t deserve to be lumped in with cis women and that they take away women's bodily autonomy, that she’s been raped before and that trans women “take away” the depth of her experiences, and other stuff. she also claims that there are only boy stuff and girls stuff and that only men like video games and computers whereas women like makeup and romance and if a trans man likes makeup and romance or dolls, he is “proving” that he is a woman.

which is just stupid. i looove old tech and i’m a cis woman, wtf!?

she also claims she’s a centrist but this seems very right-wing to me, and she also claims that she wants to be very stereotypically feminine and that tomboys are misogynists and stuff.

My workplace (a cultural non-profit) successfully unionized late last year. We achieved over 75% support during our card signing after a pretty abbreviated organizing period and were able to receive recognition and avoided a drawn out election. I am a lead organizer and have been an outspoken advocate for my coworkers; I have been very involved the whole way through and, if I had to guess, most everyone sees me as the originator. Being that we work at a cultural non-profit in a very left leaning city, management somewhat had their hand forced, but that doesn't mean they haven't engaged in union busting. They have systematically isolated people they know to be union advocates while presenting as "pro-union" to the public. They have instilled a culture of fear throughout the museum; nobody wants to say the wrong thing. We are being asked to do more work constantly since staff has been reduced by 25% since last year. I'm sure those who have worked long enough in the sector can understand what this is like, even if you haven't unionized. I have continued to take on the bulk of the work in bargaining and continuing communications with our affiliate union. I'm starting to feel incredibly isolated and, as a result, foolish for falling into the trap of feeling isolated. I hope what I'm saying makes sense, I'm running on low sleep right now and really just needed to get this out. I'm not a charismatic or extroverted person naturally which has made this entire endeavor a true test for me, and right now I feel like I'm failing. I'm feeling paranoid that even my remaining organizing members are breaking under the culture of fear and I can't rely on them to support me or my decisions. Thanks for reading, solidarity forever.

sorry to post so much, but now im worried as hell. is it true what someone on reddit said? i’d take it with a grain of salt, but they said i’d be bad at both being a tutor and a barista, both jobs i wanna work at, due to my disability making it slow and that i’m not good enough and that they wouldn’t pay me to help their kids because i don’t know either skill inside and out. however, another person on lemmy said they were being a jerk and that you gain experience by working and watching others.

idk what to believe :( the lemmy user sounds reasonable and sensible, but idk, im worried im gonna be terrible in the working industry because i dont have much of a skillset for anything as im disabled and my memory and reflexes are wack and i cant talk well (i stutter and freeze sometimes) despite being more extroverted, and my disability makes it hard for me to do so many other things.

atp i won’t be able to get a job anywhere because im not fast enough or a good worker...

...kind of a bummer that I can't tell anyone in my family because half of them (including my parents) will look at me like an ATM whose job it is to set myself on fire in order to keep them warm.

if you look into advice on talking to others, often you'll find something along the lines of asking them about themselves or their interests, that people like to talk about either of those.

i'm not interested in talking about myself, despite the following, nothing tragic or anything to be ashamed of...i'm just with me enough as-is.

i don't think my interests are general, or particular enough, to be much to discuss either.

however, i can carry a conversation pretty well with anyone that's not like me. i like exploring others' interests and views, and amusingly enough if it all pans out, they'll miss or forget that i haven't shared all that much to do with myself, at least in the moment.

but i think that's been catching up to me lately, and as much as i know what i could do, i don't feel like it.

there's nothing about me or my interests that can't be readily found in some combination across the many, many other people around. it's redundant to share, much like this.

tiresome too.

About 20 minutes ago I got off the phone with my department manager and was told my services are no longer needed. My department head said he wasn’t at liberty to discuss the reason why. I’m an at-will part-time employee for a university and do it as part of my classes. I’ve been working here for about 5 months and my relationships with everyone has been mostly positive, not super outspoken either.

This week I did some brief work in the PD office and must’ve been recognized by someone there. That person likely told the department manager what my past was and a few days later they decided to fire me. This comes only *three days after that, after many months without problems. So: I was suspended from school a few years ago due to legal charges against me, but it was ultimately stripped from my academic record and since I was a youthful offender it was also stripped from the legal record. My parents made sure of it. In court the charges were dropped to an offense (jaywalking) due to plea deal. I was never convicted. However, NONE of this should have been brought up since it is under a sealed record.

I genuinely doubt this is due to my performance at work. We’re somewhat overstaffed and a lot of my tickets are completed in a timely manner. Most of my coworkers like me and it’s not like I’ve stolen anything at work or crashed any company vehicles.

I fucking regret thinking a few years would separate me from my past actions. I thought I was able to move on and grow as a person but it finally caught up. I also wish this was because of funding or whatnot but I kept getting the “I’m not at liberty to say.” So I have to assume it’s because of my past.

Sorry for the paragraphs but I just needed to vent. This is the second time this has happened to me (first being the suspension) and I was actually relying on this job for the summer —i have no summer job lined up.

My (22F) boyfriend Will (23NB/M) only spends time with his other partner Dave (26M) and only mentions him. It's always "My boyfriend Dave this" "My boyfriend Dave that" or "I can't wait to see my boyfriend!" "I miss my boyfriend!" "I'm sad I lost my phone so I can't text my boyfriend!" (today)

Like, it's so confusing because WHAT ABOUT ME? I'm right there. And he shows guilt a few times and apologizes but keeps doing it. And he never worries about texting me. In fact, he always leaves me on read and doesn't bother to text back because mainly he's calling Dave!!!

And I have Aiko (23F), my fiancée, and I love her to death, but I don't know why I'm so jealous and hung up over this guy!! I just wish he treated me how I treated him and how Aiko and I treat each other. I never tell Aiko this stuff because I don't wanna make her jealous so I only spend time with her and talk to her about our interests, not him or his interests.

But seriously, and whenever there's an example of a relationship, he never says "I would never do that to Wendy", it's always "I would never do that to Dave" when I hear it. I'm just an afterthought.

But you know what? I'm obviously a sidepiece, and he's romantic sometimes when we see each other and touchy with me, so maybe he loves me more than I think and I'm just overreacting because I'm such a good person. Like, the queen of good people. So I will likely stay with him and just suck it up.

I noticed this happening over Christmas. The one big claim to fame that Amazon has is fast and "free" shipping. But that seems to be going away now.

Alot of stuff I ordered in November and December of last year, took longer than usual to arrive. I just chalked it up to how busy the holiday season is.

Fast forward to this month, and all of the items I ordered took longer to arrive. Even "Prime" listed stuff. On the website it said shipping next day. It took two days to arrive. Stuff listed as two days to arrive turns out to be a week now, and so called "Prime next day shipping" is now only guaranteed if you spend 35 dollars or more. And even then it still arrives a day late.

So to everyone hating on Amazon, rejoice! It looks like it's reign is starting to dip. I've been doing alot more shopping on Walmart who seems to have better pricing and shipping.

I wonder who the next big online retailer will be?

Do 6th graders need to know what a ducat is? Idk. I just thought this video was dank so I made them watch it.

It's not a graded project in a typical way and I already did a thesis esque project last year that I can basically repurpose. But I have to get the prof advisor signature and it feel super awkward to reach out with a month or less left.

I am not understanding the Kanyes, the Candace Owens, the Nikki Minaj's, and now Chilli of TLC. Please for the love of Emmitt Till, help me understand this please.

Other races and women are welcome to expanding my horizons as well.

I just come to vent. I'm in the middle of a trip that supposedly would be vacations. But bickering with my (soon to be ex) girlfriend has ruined everything and I practically sacrificed my BD for this. I know I screwed some shit I have not a great excuse. I handling too much shit and knew I shouldn't have come but did so much to come anyway. I shouldn't have risked it. Now I have to go to Ushuaia with a silent treatment. I should have stayed brought NMS and played it instead of fucking all this shit...

Edit Super quick context last year was shit my mother died I was married and we got separated at the start of the year. My shit job got worse and it was already toxic enough. But come mid year I meet my current GF we feel in love and we tried to have our first vacation together. It didn't fully go like shi there where fuck ups but I fixed it. Still morale didn't improve.

or sitting around a campfire in the forest playing a dumb guitar. Even online I can't escape from people living a full life, I'm so tired of this. I hate you all, all 20 users of this platform.

as if I'm hoping that this face suddenly looks somehow different from how it's looked all my life.

Okay yea there were bad moments like getting yelled at at home...

But when we were traveling around the city... omg that was great bonding time... I feel so emotionally attached to her lol

Specifically the younger ones here and the ones who don't have any kids. So my mom couldn't care less, but my dad really wants me to have a kid and says things like that I'll have a man if I do this, or a man if I look a certain way. Here's the thing: he knows I have a fiancée but I haven't told him about my boyfriend because IDK how he feels about the whole poly thing. He doesn't seem to care but he'd rather I got married/engaged to a man.

Also, he constantly talks about how I would be the perfect mother and such and he would love biological grandkids, but I can't really have biological grandkids because both of my partners are female at birth. I don't really want kids anyway as I don't wanna go through the aspect of getting pregnant. He's nonbinary, so I'm still a lesbian and he says I can be due to that and part of the reason I only date women and enbies is, besides not really wanting to date a man, is that I've talked to men before and several of them wanted to get me pregnant, didn't respect my wishes, and once I was bisexual as a teenager, they ignored and tried to erase my identity and acted like I was a straight girl only capable of falling in love with him.

Now I won't say all men are like this, because they're not, but this has been my experience.

Sorry for ranting so much but ughhhhh

We're all fucked

So I was about to make nostupidquestions a post saying "Has anyone ever charged an edible with one of those balcony chargers?" and i swear i was not making fun the word I was looking for was edible. Godsdammit ebike. I'm leaving that one in there but I swear i am not that high. yet what the fuck me.

I decided to just copy the post and research the damn thing myself in a notepad thingy but like. Get your mind out of the kitchen and go eat your midnight salsa dude.

i just wanted to laugh at me with y'all while i eat my salsa. anyways.