Good, finally setup my full federation stack. Got soulseek working. Done alot of stuff at work too and watched gundam Thunderbolt with a friend :)

It's pretty fucking bad.
But, i made it through the hard part—only up from here.

Shitty. My supervisor is making my life a living nightmare. I can't go to HR because people have done that before and nothing bad ever happens to her. All it does is makes my supervisor target you and try to get you fired. My supervisor is very careful to tip toe the line where she rarely has ever said anything egregious enough to be reported. It's just incessant nitpicking and condescension and nothing I can do is ever right. It's also not limited to me...she does it to everyone...but I have a tendency to get caught in her crossfire a bit more than some.

Problem is my one and only friend works there. I don't want to leave my only friend. And my job field is so small that I would have to move hours away to get another job.

Literally everything else about my job is absolutely amazing. I get paid very well and get free food every day and everyone else is super nice. But I don't know what the hell to do. I feel like I want to commit toaster bath.

A friend stuck between a rock and a hard place managed to find housing, so I'd say pretty good as I'm about to help with the move-in!

My sister and me spent a day in São Paulo city, visiting our 80yo aunt. She's in good health, and was extra happy to see us - and with the gift (a crochet purse, made by our mum).

Speaking on my mum, she has been coughing for a week or so, after she got a cold. Her cough is improving but I'm still worried about it, I told her to see a doc but she's damn stubborn.

Kika and Siegfrieda (my cats) are keeping up with their annoying but cute routine, I guess: one has 3AM zoomies, another meows loudly and "shows" us every single problem she has, as if we were able to stop raining or the neighbour's baby from crying.

It's pinhão season! It's pinhão season!

I'm eating my quota of pinhão this winter! I wish I could plant a Paraná pine home, but I don't have enough space for that (those trees get huge). Because of that I'm making do with my future apple bonsai, pepper plants and stuff like this. When I get Rich® I'll make sure to buy a small house with a big garden and plant a bunch of those.

Yesterday I prepared some baked rice with hot dogs, it was glorious. Specially the provolone and Parmesan crust. (I'm calling it baked "rice" but there was almost no rice there, in comparison with the vegs and sausages.)

Kind of okay.

I'm focusing a lot on myself since January and been going to the gym a lot.

I am noticing though that I am being excluded to things I haven't been excluded before by some of my friends. We use to go hang around and drink a lot, they still drink a lot in fact but it's just not my goal anymore.

I feel like I am slowly losing a ton of friends. And at the age of 33 it's really hard to find other friends. Not that I want to replace them or they did anything bad to me besides not asking me to go out anymore for obvious reasons that I don't want to drink anymore... but it's still kind of a scary process.

I am really wondering if I should just reduce gym and drink again. But at the same time I love going to the gym now and really am not in the mood for hangovers at 32.

Beyond spasms in my traps, I'm doing really good! 😃 A new Chinese takeout place recently opened up, food is absolutely flawless even though it's expensive!

Surviving , burnt out as hell but surviving