This moment feels SOOO two seconds ago. I don't really get how life can feel that unbearable, or why people need to fuck themselves up to feel good. I have some painful physical disabilities that make many days hard to get through yet I've never felt that life wasn't worth it or was unbearable. I mean I don't see how people who are otherwise healthy and whole need to inebriate themselves to "feel good." If they only knew how much worse things could be! Yet I don't have any desire to enable an addiction syndrome in myself, I can find happiness in just having another day to spend being alive.