Like Peter Frampton

Eh. I have thing going on that I'm looking forward to, trying to keep my head up with things, but right now there's this issue that's putting a shadow over everything.

I try to talk to the person involved, but they've kept at it to this point where I don't want to be around them. I've tried to be gentle about it, but it's like everything I said gets forgotten in a week and I'm the bad person for putting my foot down after.

I think it feels worse because I know what I need to do, but it's going to make a lot of things very difficult, and it's going to take accepting that someone who was very important in my life isn't the person I knew when we reached that point. That neither of us are.

Had a pint of blood drawn today. I feel dizzy and heavy and very hot 😭

With my hands silly.

exhausted. physically and mentally. even if i manage to disconnect its never for long enough to recouperate fully

Bored. I'm out on my anniversary tradition, which is going apple picking.. Except my other half immediately rolled out the picnic blanket and has been sleeping on me for the past hour.

It's sad to think of how the dynamics have changed over the past 10 years between us. It's almost like the brain hamster wheels have all fallen apart and what's left are only the most basic of human functions. It's days like today I wish my country had any kind of worthwhile mental health care.

I feel terrible because I didn't buy even a card for my wife's birthday. I just took her to her mother's house. This was two weeks ago. I am still baffled why I didn't buy flowers or something. My wife isn't demanding at all.

To quote an indecisive mollusk: "Everything is going just as planned!"

Hopeless.

i just want to fucking die die die die die die die die die die die FUCKING DIE ALREADYYYYHSHSUDJEJJSJDKF