You sound like you're handling it as well if not better than most. I'll go through phases of trying to get a routine of being physically active started, but it never sticks and I end up going back to marijuana as a coping mechanism. I should be thankful that it's just that, but I get irrationally angry with myself for not being able to do better.

Even therapy fell by the wayside, because while I might have issues that can be helpful to talk about, I can't talk my way into coping with the system torturing us for increased profits.

Keep up whatever you're doing that works for you, and don't let anyone make you feel like you have to do more than you already do just to be happy.

Does it count as not being on meds if I self medicate by getting high all the time?

Because that's what I do, can't say I recommend it

mushrooms for me.

i had a bad psychotic break about 5 years ago because of my old meds interacting badly with my new meds, so my therapist recommended cutting back on them to zero while simultaneously ramping up on the cardio & sleep like you're doing.

i recognized the signs of my own own anxiety and depression reasserting themselves so i tried amanita muscaria in my desperate attempts to find relief and have been amazed at how effective they are.

i learned amanita is not regulated so you're going to have to try a multitude of brand names and; even then; will have to keep experimenting since each brand keeps changing their own recipes. also it's expensive and insurances will not cover them; i would have called up my old weed dealer if i were in a worse financial situation.

i also learned that they produce the same feelings of lethargy/slowness/fogginess that my meds used to have on me; but they feel much more targeted during episodes that i've learned are triggers for me. (it sort of feels like selective intoxication where it only happens when it's needed the most).

it was strange for me since i've tried mushrooms before in the past and it never seemed to have an impact on me; but now they somehow are. maybe it has something to do with the fact my bloodstream is no longer suffused with all the ssri's and snri's?

Ive got no healthy strategies

in the same boat. it sounds like you're handling it better than me lol so I don't know if I have much advice. i haven't adapted many healthy strategies. I've found weed is good because I'm also an alcoholic so it's a harm reduction thing, but building a heavy dependency is still to be avoided, been there for a few years and it really sucks. i did DBT and it helped me a lot with other emotional problems and I rely less on harmful coping mechanisms now. depression is still there and my main problem but having those other weights off helped. i think you named a lot of the most important things already like trying to push yourself to exercise, eat well, socialise, etc it really is the basics that will give the most reward. I struggled with them this year but gonna keep at it. im also autistic and it makes it harder because some things that work for the depression can make the autistic burnout worse, like forcing oneself to do things or whatever can make burnout worse while it could help if it was just depression. so it's a balancing act.