You're right. I should be asking my friends. But, a part of me also wants to know what a stranger would say. My friends know and care about me, but I think it's worthwhile to see what someone totally removed would say if they knew how I felt.
And I won't lie, maybe a part of me is looking for permission. I don't want to feel like I'm crazy or making a rash decision.
I really appreciate it, though. It's tough, and I don't think there's a 'good' answer. No matter what I do, it'll be an unhappy outcome on some level.
Yeah, I think you're right. I just needed to hear it.
It really fuckin' sucks, but I think I'm just gonna make it worse if I wait. I'm just a little scared to admit years of my life were wasted, yah know?