What a weird question. No I didn't! I even stuck to her to the very end on the day she died. But I can't forget some of the hurtful things she said.
Sorry it just seem liked from reading into your post it seemed like a boundary of sorts.
I recognize this state of affairs, and yet there’s no other entity to step in.
You did not say country, but entity. Forgive me if I didn't catch that you meant country in that context. And I don't think that a valid question since Palestine is still around and so are Palestinians. And resistance groups like Hamas are going to keep fighting.
Xi has something to say to you 
venting on here about my dad... again cw: grief/death/suicide thoughts, alcoholism
My dad not doing well again as always, but like I hear him groaning in pain a lot lately again. This time instead of hearing him grunt/groan in pain? if it's pain, I am hearing him do that a lot at night now, every night now. Along with him swearing to himself. But he just says he's fine. But I don't think he is. Something just feels off, but I don't know what. I don't know what it is this time, since last week it was his foot giving him issues. At least he saw a doctor for that foot pain because it was too much for him.
Maybe im just overreacting again. Maybe he's mad at me or something. Or he just wants to be alone. I don't know. Lately I can't stop having thoughts again, of just what if he did die? and I hate those thoughts because it's like I'm grieving for him despite him still being alive. and it reminds me of last year earlier in the year when I had those thoughts for my mom before she died. I don't know. I just. I don't want him to die. But he just keeps on drinking and drinking and giving himself various health issues because all he is doing is constantly poisoning himself. And since he refuses to get the help he really needs, he will die.
I hate this like.. constant.. bleakness. I'm not sure how to word it, it just feels like all I have is negative things to look forward to in the future. And it would be nice to stop thinking about what I am gonna do if he does die, and how different things will be from then on. I'm really tired of having constant death thoughts, whether it's of like, my dad dying, or in the past my mom dying and my mom death from last year, or me, thinking about death itself and sometimes ready to die. or like recently today like how am I going to handle my dad death, and what will I do afterwards?
It just never ends. but that not true, nothing last forever. I just have to calm myself down. Especially since this isn't the first time I got too worried for him and started to spiral.
Its really nice to finally be able to start opening windows because it's not cold as hell. It just nice hearing the outside, and like hearing all that outside noise like birds going wild. or squirrels doing their thing.
I forgot easter was a thing, until like I saw someone mention it. I'm living in a void devoid of time
I got new hand soap and I really love the scent of it
Kolibri
joined 11 months ago
Cats are very beautiful creatures. Since you like soccer, do you have a favorite soccer team? and what other video games have you played? I'm not familiar with FC. And I'm sorry for your loss, the zionists will pay for every death and pain they have caused