libidinal goes kinda hard tho matt was really onto something with that one

ive never done it but would be open to it, it's kind of inherently cringe so i'd need to more fully embrace "cringe=free"

i think it would be sick nasty to be bi/pan but i thought about it a lot a lot when i was younger and men really just do not do it for me the way women do. it might be more of a 90/10 attraction thing than a 100% thing and i wouldn't run from it if that shifted but i just fw women too heavy. bi flag got the sickest color scheme too it'd be cool to rep that but alas women just r Too Beautiful to me.

this was my most recent ex lover and also me to a lesser extent, it sounds like an attachment thing for sure. healing attachment is bigger than i can answer but my advice is try to recognize when that anxiety is triggered and don't make rash relationship defining decisions in that state. find ways to soothe yourself/let your partner soothe you/calm the anxiety, then reassess the situation when it passes. trust me man do not do the self sabotaging thing, take it from my recent experience/my recent behavior it will just make you feel Big Sad (if also more safe/relieved in the immediate but that shit is self protecting in a superficial way that will make you miss out on good things).

one wolf inside me knows you are absolutely correct and has full faith in myself the other is all "but it won't matter....because it won't be with her"

maybe its just start very small - 2 days a week, say - and watch the baby steps pay off into something bigger eventually. or something........

EDIT: or maybe capitalism just squeezes the things that give us joy and meaning out of us and the idea that we have more than a miniscule amount of control over that is a convenient propagandistic lie FUCK wage labor makes me feel so trapped

hell yeah do ur motherfuckin freaky thang!

currently ive whittled it down to just T * nder and H * nge that I'm trying to make work during my stupid single arc...but shld I try B * mble again? ive heard a lot of ppl say its vibe is marginally chiller and less toxic than T * nder but when i tried it there was a dearth of alt girls that quite frankly bordered on criminal.

one day it'll happen again (i tell myself while being annoying and unfunny and deeply atomized and lonely)

order sol you have to stop. you smoke too tough. your swag too different. your bitch is too bad. they’ll kill you

yeah plus wasps, bed bugs, surely some others I'm forgetting. I was def exaggerating but still I hate these little fux