started wellbutrin and did a shower and laundry first thing when i woke up instead of internet-rotting, if this is placebo i'm riding it. no amphetamine-esque euphoria this time at least so far.

if u find dating fun as a thing in itself vs a grinding means to an end chore i deeply envy you this shit is wack

I think part of feeling love for life and humanity is being able to recognize when someone needs a bullet in the back for the common good.

sadly yeah you can feel some sorta abstracted compassion for them (they were born an innocent child like any of us and shaped into monsters by circumstance, material conditions, propaganda, etc) but when you've become something so wretched and dangerous relief at seeing someone like that get got is completely reasonable and in alignment with love and a cherishing of humanity

i am in deep emotional pain

he sounds adorable but also like someone i absolutely would also not enjoy dating lmao

why'd my fruity ass soy lil ass have to go and fall in l*ve with the second person i ever met off the apps. real amateur hour behavior. you hate to see it.

idk but it makes me feel infinitely better about my own shit by comparison

attention management everywhere: there are exactly two hours of the day where scheduling meetings is unacceptable - the first hour after an employee gets in, and lunch hour. this still gives you 5-7 hours to play around with within the length of the average workday, there is no excuse. if there must be a meeting within the first hour, at least don't make it first thing when an employee walks in the door. the fact that so many fail at these basic parameters - while you already make more money to do less - makes me deeply question the value of your continued existence

the cruelty of my lost love d&d...making my mind churn with possibilities within my old campaign setting and of new player characters on the other side of the screen when i know damn well my social life can't accommodate that shit right now

your little play war room you fuckin nerds? 😤 🤓🤓🤓🙄

truly the fact that that mega is so much more active than the main one shows that the wisdom of the grillpill has not reached enough of the wayward souls of this world

matched w/ an alt femby who makes electronic music pls god help me not fumble

holy shit i hadn't read The Road since high school and completely forgot that this was a passage in it (or anything about the novel more than generalities really), maybe i should get back into cormac b/c completely devoid of context this brought me close to tears (i may also already be in a state tonight for that). i started a reread of blood meridian not too long ago but v quickly fell off it.

EDIT by close to tears i mean actual tears but u know i still got a little toxic masculinity kicking around in there : /