i'm not much of a bulletins and news poster but uh.....is this some world war 3 shit? i find it hard to follow rapidly developing geopolitics but this all seems very bad and bleak...

another agency in my city tryna poach ya boy first time i've ever been hit up by a recruiter unprompted, makes me feel like a bit of a hotshot. my new job/promotion is Fine but a little stuffy, and these other positions might bring me closer to communities i grew up in/around so can't hurt to hear them out.

the spycraft and politicking are cool too ig

is a dozen n a half matches in like 2.5 weeks across two apps good numbers for a dude dating women? this is only when i pay up sadly, it's a draught when i'm on the free versions. and ofc most of the matches don't even become convos let alone dates (simply the nature of the format)

lookit this nerd over here having feelings and shit!! couldn't be me!!!

(nah i know it's a good thing, and if i found this once i can find it again. but on the other hand aaaaaaaaaaaaah we both love each other why cant we just be together!!!! )

(but i also know life isn't that simple, sometimes our mental shit and traumas and hurts are stronger in a given moment than our drive toward love for someone else, and/or people have incompatible goals even if they have deeply compatible personalities )

fall took "labor day as unofficial last day of summer" pretty seriously in terms of weather where i live so methinks perhaps i can start a wee bit of spooky season early. but then again i don't want to exhaust my spooky media catalogue too early which has been a problem for me the last couple years.

not me on 5 hours sleep cuz i woke up with a vice grip of anxiety in my chest i was sober last night too can't even blame it on hangover dread

it feels weird and scandalous that u can play BG3 as an origin companion and have two of my imaginary friends romance each other. thinkign about it makes me feel frankly nauseous!!

i need to beat baldurs gate asap so i can take my shitty life back from this time and attention tyrant....

the only way out of this vidya game addiction/hyperfixation is through at this point, i fear...

gonna try keeping flavored seltzer around to address the fact i solo drink too much. just need something to reach for when the night time Dark Urge kicks in. maybe it'll work maybe it won't but i gotta find a way to not spend half my life half hungover and dealing w/ a case of the party poops lol

spinning the Strive soundtrack at work a year after getting back into real music : /

Fr!