Or maybe current society requires people to love in an unnatural way. Monogamy isn't the rule in the wild, it is the exception. And when it happens, monogamy might be valid for a single mating season only. Or until the baby can survive on its own. Why humans should be different?
Maybe you just need to relax and welcome feelings that come as a wave. They come and go. Those feelings have highs and lows. And don't get too attached to those society rules and roles that won't hurt anybody if you don't follow.
This is why we're divergent. We diverge from this society model. In another society model, we wouldn't be divergent, we would be typical.
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