Technically, I could live in an apartment. But I can't afford a nice one, so I can't live in an apartment, haha.

Nobody can do this work for you: learn to bleed with a smile.

Nope, quit reading there. My old doctor didn't believe in period pain and told me I just needed to learn how to smile through it.

At least nobody would accuse you of half-assing it

Do you have unprompted creativity in other areas?

Like, I struggle with traditional writing, but I make miniature dioramas. It's occasionally unprompted; I recently bought frozen shrimp and thought the lid was sorta window-shaped, so now I'm making it into a window seat for a 1:12 scale treehouse library diorama. I wasn't planning the diorama first, the whole scene came to mind unbidden, and now I'm making it.

I feel like it's the same thing as what you're describing, but I don't know if you see it as different or not.

Nah, I ran into it going on thyroid hormones too. My parents had a couple church friends that were absolutely adamant that I needed to take the 'natural' desiccated pig thyroid instead of the 'unnatural' synthetic thyroid hormones. Their faith said that their god doesn't make mistakes, that either he wants you to have this condition, or he's provided a perfect natural remedy, so synthetic medicines existing is hubris.

It's more common with mental health meds, but it's not like there's a law saying it's the only meds people can be shitty about.

Okay, but if I told the bf to get bread on the way home, and he got donuts instead, we're breaking up

I understand “corporal punishment”, in the context we are talking, is severe and recurrent physical aggression; that is not what I intended to parse when I mentioned “extreme measures”.

I was using the legal definition of corporal punishment as currently allowed in schools, "the deliberate infliction of physical pain by hitting, paddling, spanking, slapping, or any other physical force used as a means of discipline." What you consider 'extreme measures' is still considered corporal punishment, but it's on the lighter end. My elementary school principal proudly displayed the wooden spanking paddle on his desk, he had a little stand for it and everything.

At an intuitive level, something tells me this is not about discipline and education but control, physical and mental.

Of course it's about control, discipline and control are synonyms? It's even said that kids are being 'out of control' if they misbehave in public and parents are encouraged to spank their kids in the middle of the grocery store to reestablish dominance. The general perception is that kids 'test' their parents control through misbehavior, and parents are shamed if they let challenges to their authority stand. It's supposedly to train kids for the strictly hierarchical world they're allegedly entering as adults,

Again, that's without the religious aspect that says everybody is tainted with the evil of Originial Sin at birth, and that an evil demigod is really good at telling kids to misbehave so he can build his army in hell. There's parenting manuals I grew up with that straight up said an infant crying is following satan and trying to manipulate their parents. It was encouraged to put crawling babies on a blanket and switch them with a plastic ruler if they tried to crawl off the blanket without permission. The holy book specifies that 'the wages of sin is death', so using implements to hit your kids with is a generosity in comparison.

I’ll read your link a bit later. Thank you.

It is long and a hard read, but it's truly an eye opening experience for people who didn't grow up with American Evangelicalism.

My local public transit only commes by five times a day, and if the bus is already full, they'll not let the wheelchair user on. Ostensibly they'll send a van to pick them up, but those don't adhere to a schedule and can take hours to arrive.

Transit around here is so bad that I've had multiple jobs tell me I'm not eligible for hire if I rely on the bus.

There are even a few textile producing trees, like mulberry, that are even better, because it doesn't need to be spun and woven. The raw inner bark can be pounded together to form sheets of barkcloth.

This is the argument I've heard. You get more nutrition from a field if you grow feed crops and less if it's just grazed, so grass-fed yields less cows per acre. It doesn't change the amount of methane per cow.

It’s strange that suicidal ideation is considered enough to make you “crazy.

It's also incredibly fucked up that some forms of suicidal ideation is considered normal religious behavior too. Longing for heaven because the world is a sinful place is considered normal and healthy in my area, but longing for death because the world is fucked up means you need to be locked away.

I've got persistent ideation because I was raised with the former, but as soon as I stopped believing in the afterlife, people started getting real weird about it.

So, I'm afab and probably agender, which is where the confusion is coming from. I'm on estrogen and progesterone because otherwise my cycle is stuck to 'on', so even my relationship with hormones is complicated.

Neither of these things directly tell me my subconscious sex, but when the testosterone makes me feel awful, or when being treated and seen as a woman makes me feel wonderful, or when estrogen gives me mild waves of buzzing bodily euphoric, I make inferences about my subconscious sex from that.

See, none of that resonates with me at all. Going off my meds makes me feel terrible, but that's from the resulting anemia. I've tried living as a man, I've tried living as a woman, I've never gotten that "yes, this is me" feeling that people talk about. I don't know what "psychological self conceptualization" as a gender means, because it's all uncomfortable for me?

It feels like what you're talking about is the university course and I'm still in primary education.