I gotcha ;) You’re welcome!

Considering the current political climate, I think it is on the graphic because it is an American corporation like Google.

Thank you both – and apologies. I feel I’m thick as porridge with this topic. I bought my Hassio Yellow months ago and I keep on pushing this because it is so daunting.

I finally understand the difference between what I have (connecting my device to a VPN service) and what I need (setting up a server so I can connect to my device) – so I can call myself wiser than yesterday!

ExpressVPN offers port forwarding and I’ve read about it on the Hassio website, but I am not sure that’d be the way to go for someone who baaarely knows what they are doing.

I see! I was also thinking the graphics looked too… chirpy for an Amnesia-like experience haha

I’ll put it on my list. Thank you!

Is it spooky but hopeful, or spooky and dark?

I’ve read “Lovecraftian creatures” and now I am worried haha

This looks wonderful. Hopeful and bright. Right what I need. Thanks!

Thanks for the suggestions – and the warning!

I’ll put them on the list to check out once my emotions have settled.

You are correct. Kindness comes naturally to me when directed towards others, but it's always been a struggle to show it to myself.

Thank you. Here goes nothing 🌱

I see the truth in your words. Thank you. I guess in the end the only tool that’ll teach me how to redirect all that kindness towards myself is time and people’s scorn.

It is almost a full time job to create boundaries you were never taught, isn’t it?

Thanks again.

Thanks for your words – and no offence at all.

On previous breakups, I’ve always managed to talk things through to figure a good way to deal with our feelings. I put my priorities aside and offered my time and energy to soften the fall, but I guess this time it didn’t work because he really wasn’t willing.

He said himself he felt stupid for not even considering I wouldn’t want to see him again, so online friendship wasn’t really a real option for him. Never was.

Now I’m just trying to figure out how to redirect my need to support towards myself, and it’s being a struggle. It feels like going against my instincts.

But yeah. You are correct. It sucks for what was before.

Thanks for your comment!

Gaslighting is (as far as I learnt, and among other things) negating the other person’s feelings/reality and making it about your own.

And as I mentioned, it is not that I don’t see the unhealthy reaction my mind is having, it is that I don’t know how to break it.

I see I shouldn’t. I know he doesn’t deserve it. It just doesn’t click and never has, and I’m looking for tools to break this cycle once and for all.

I’ve tried to find how to mark this as NSFW via the Voyager app, because the Cursed Site™️ method doesn’t seem to work. I’ll log in from my computer and do it from there!