Sometimes I am writing something, very focused, my family member wants something from me and I snap at them incredibly hard in the retrospection seconds later. Like some kind of volcano eruption and then frustration because my train of thought is totally lost now and the focus gone I don't know what I even wanted to write.

Because you know I had this overarching idea but it is too ephemeral to remember for long. It's more like a gist, feeling even. Super fragile and easily lost in the wind of thoughts.

Maybe it isn't even that important but I hate when it happens. It dissipates and there is no trace of it whatsoever as if it never even existed.