I still can't keep my focus while reading. Like it's to the point where I got through college while reading maybe a sum total of 30 pages between all the books I was supposed to read in all my classes, between literature and textbooks and published papers. It was nearly fucking impossible and it literally almost killed me a couple of times, but reading through the books was actually impossible for me. I couldn't do it. I really tried with everything I had. No matter how much I read the words, my brain could not bring the ideas from page to concept, I could not stay present. I probably technically read the words of hundreds of pages while in college, but they were nothing more than markings on the page with associated sounds.

For me it is a disability. There are things that I am unable to do. I can still accomplish things, but I am not always able to do it the same way as someone else, and in that way it is a disability. Medication helps, but the problem is always there for me.