Well that my secret all my dreams are nightmares, do people have pleasant dreams? My are either straight up unnerving nightmares or a weird crazy mess that makes no sense. Also they jump from one scene to other. Sometimes they are hard to keep together. What I don't understand is for most people dreams are supposed to fade away after waking. But for me a lot of them I can hold onto for fucking years in vivid detail. And if I concentrate hard enough when I go to bed can revist some. But that part is rare.

Dreams fascinate me and I will ponder over mine for days or weeks. The only dreams that make sense are the smoking dreams. I am ex smoker and I will have the occasional dream of picking up a pack of cigarettes and smoking. They say that is just par for the course for addicts. Sad thing I hear that one doesn't ever go away.

But the rest of my dreams cant gst handle on them. But none of them are good or pleasant.