I was upset I only got diagnosed as mild adhd. I know its worse but I automatically cover for it very well.

I have 110 unfinished projects to show for it.

It took me 40 years to realize that not all doctors are good at their jobs. In fact, many are terrible.

I have heard that there are non-amphetamine based ADHD meds from friends that weren't allowed to take regular meds. Which might be easier to get a Dr to start with if brought up. They (the friends) said they didn't like the non-stimulant ones as they felt weird. But you might be able to try to see if they work for you. My boss's kids seem to have had luck with the non-stimulant versions. I might need to look into getting a small script for some whenever I finally am able to go to visit some friends in Japan. I have heard that it is hard to get approval to travel to a lot of countries with USA ADHD meds because amphetamines.

The only time I have traveled outside the USA after starting ADHD meds was Japan, but had the benefit of being in my early 20's and more energy and not many years taking the meds. Now that I am in my late 30's and been taking meds for so long, I already get a lot of anxiety if my refills might get delayed. I just feel so spaced out and no energy aside from small bursts. Kind of like just a permanent state of caffeine crash (even with energy/pre-workout drinks). Some of it might be due to my normal meds counteracting some of the effects of my anxiety/depression meds' with regards to lower energy.

“Oh, here we go.”?! Fuck that wanker! Change doctor and file a complaint. I'm sorry you went through that and that you can't take meds for it. There are natural things you can do. They're not as effective, but they're better than nothing in some cases. I can't take them, as they exacerbated depression for me, but they're out there.