But what I'm really upset about is that people aren't communicating and cooperating and being respectful of each other and working together and being social and pushing back the alienation and playing and finding joy.
I'm so fucking isolated these days. This is the closest thing that I have to a social outlet. And so many people in multiplayer games just have no interest in communicating or working together, or have no interest in, like... playing in a way that supports the team and works towards a cooperative goal? Like they're playing by themselves, in a multiplayer lobby, and I absolutely do not understand it and I hate it. I don't understand why people play multiplayer games when they don't wan to play with people.
This is why I stopped playing games that you need a stack to enjoy. Even my friends get that response at this point-- if I have to pay 40 to 70 dollars just to play a game with whatever stack I happen to be around at the time until they drop it(usually in two months) and I'm stuck solo-queueing anyway, all I've really done is wasted money. Happened to Overwatch, happened to Destiny, would happen to Helldivers if I got it. I miss free-for-all deathmatches, but not enough to stomach cracker propaganda and go back to CoD.
These days, all I really play anymore is heavily modded Minecraft and Baldur's Gate. Multiplayer's a fucking wash ever since proper Doom and proper Halo died.