I don't know what to say other than you're one of my favorite people here, please value yourself and don't resort to adventurism. Hopefully you're just joking about that part.

Even if you don't think what you do has any impact, don't believe that. It does, it's literally impossible for you to not have an impact. You matter, you're here, and you are valuable.

You've been working hard and you're burnt out. Take a step back, find another job, recover your strength. Praxis will be there for you if and when you are ready and able. Remember that the mutual aid comm is here if you need it.

me too thanks. felling the same.

at least find some good targets if you really decide on adventurism.

The supply chain industry is always hiring, entry level positions don’t require degrees, and people skills are highly desired. Unfortunately I don’t have the power to directly give you a remote job or something but feel free to reply or reach out for suggestions if you’d like some!

As the sayings go, gotta pay the bills and eat somehow. We can focus on building worldwide revolution after that.

my mind wanders to adventurism.

I'm feeling you there, this month has really been awful. For me it started with losing a friend, the pain has been indescribable. Making things worse most of my spending money this month has since gone to attempting to bail out another comrade picked up by ICE since then. Fortunately my work has been blessedly stable in spite of things or I would really be starting to lose it.

Despite that stability it's been almost impossible to focus on work with the ICE gestapo hanging out in my neighborhood pretty much every day. I hope I don't end up suffering consequences for that but either way there's no end in sight and that's starting to wear on me.

I hope you manage to find something and please don't hesitate to reach out if you need help.

Every morning I wake up, I ask myself one thing: against what or whom will I now have my revenge against society?

I have spent the majority of my life so utterly consumed by justified and highly depressive misanthropic disgust, that it's fully circled back around to cackling Pythonesque whimsy

What kind of adventures do you like to imagine going on?

Is your local parks department hiring seasonal workers? As a stop-gap, there has never been a job I've enjoyed more. You get to do real work for your community and they're grateful for it to the point of thanking you multiple times per day. The pay sucks but it feels like the kind of job I'd do under communism.

Iirc, we're both Dark Rivers of the Heart enjoyers, right? I just reread it. Koontz is very but it was still a good read.

Unrelated, this is a very good documentary.

https://archive.org/details/lucio_urtubia

You're in similar enough company. I had two family members die this year and I've drifted from a lot of my lib friends due to the genocide. My career is at least going excellent, but fucking hell I'm going batty.

If people were less shitty I'd be less misanthropic

I hope the last line isn’t serious and it’s just an offhand remark due to your situation like I totally understand the emotional toll unemployment has but using this as the motivator to think about doing adventurism is really immature.

You do understand that it’s not just you that suffers the consequences but your family members, friends, and loved ones who are now going to be monitored by the state for as long as they’re in power?

I don’t think it’s fair to subject them to this over this insatiable urge to be martyred, I think this is an issue with a lot of people who have their ideological awakening online. Jt isn’t a healthy outlook not just as a leftist but as a person and there’s better ways you can manage the stresses you’re experiencing.

I vacillate on my levels of misanthopy depending upon time of day and day of week.

Its a real thing i struggle with some times. Solidarity comrade. I dont have advice to give, and if i did it would likely suck, but i just wanted to speak up and say i empathize with you.

Have you considered teaching English in South Korea?

Why are you feeling people who don't like you on general principle????

I know the feeling. This Tom Paxton song [CW for n-word] has never been more relevant in my lifetime.