Not a hexbearer myself but I feel the need to puke this out.

Not too great. Materially I'm okay, but the hitlerian pro-colonizer narratives all around me make me go all doom and gloom.

Death to Israel.

Death to Amerikkka.

I am so full of hatred for settlers. Like, ion't even want these motherfuckers re-educated anymore; I want these colonizer ghouls packed into the same mass graves they put my ancestors in

I should have never come home for thanksgiving. Both my parents have gone full right wing and have been saying that they won’t do holiday shopping in person cause of all the “thugs” that will rob you in the parking lot. Endless dog whistles when they just hate black people. They’ve become completely brain broken by consuming local news.

Other than that I’ve been alright.

I dont feel its productive to share how my internal thoughts are, so I will say internally its hell, externally things are alright.

Had a paranoid disassociative psychotic break 2 weeks ago, seeing all the doctors, have no chill, and I'm so so so so fucking sober. Its been rough tbh

Just about 20 hours since I last had nicotine. I'm doing okay but cravings are really starting to get at me.

being annihilated by the psychic agony and raw horror of this world

I've achieved a state of almost zen depression where I care about absolutely nothing and don't even have enough energy to feel bad about it. I honestly see no reason to do anything or even live anymore.

Executive dysfunction continues to kick my ass. Finishing achool and any hope for a future where I'm not on disability are pretty much out the window.

But I'm in a great, loving romantic relationship and I don't really care about any of the rest of that anymore. So shits good

it cold. Hate cold.

Welcome back!

I look forward to reminding everyone about the national day of mourning.

Pretty good. On one hand, the medical debt continues to mount faster than I can pay it. On the other hand, we're still fed and housed, and I might be getting an ADHD diagnosis. Terrified of ADHD meds because of how often I feel jittery even without caffeine, but they say it might can calm me down so it seems worth a shot

Learning Russian has been kicking my ass, but I signed up for the next level so hopefully next semester is хорошо, сейчас мой русский очень плохо товарищи. Looking forward to winter break when I can take a breather and just work instead of dealing with both work and school

I'm doing good. Trying to kick energy drinks, mostly successful... but man, it's annoying how much more tired I feel in the mornings :(

good since i'm gonna quit my job

bad since i have to be around family for thanksgiving

Sleepy!

Happy you're out of rehab!

I've been feing hopeful, public workers of my province have been striking, and have been purposely gathering in some city centers, and the general response has been really strong solidarity for those striking. It fills me with hope to see people gather and collectivize, and even be supported by the broader public.

gliding on desert waves of fiery void

I am doing well for the most part, aside from the crippling fear of defaulting on a mortgage or losing our power. For a while I couldn't find a job, and we had to go on SNAP. This helped us a lot, and was providing around $1000 a month for groceries. We were able to catch up on debts and bills, and didn't have to worry about food. Then I got a decent job (yay) and our monthly SNAP benefits went down to $250 (nooooo). System working as intended, but now we aren't eligible and fell behind after some illnesses and other stuff. Now it's like playing catch up every week, trying to pay the most immediately needed bills (and forgetting the others exist due to stress). I'm happy and thankful for having income now, I just wish it hadn't completely fucked things.

First time in my life of internetting where I had a router actually give up the ghost. Had to drop some cash to get a new one.

Since I was buying things, got a wireless card for a PC I was rehabilitating to be a future "video entertainment device" in the living room. Figured since I was trying to make it run a flavor of Linux it was going to be a nightmare... but it installed without a hitch.

Accidently agreed to move to a different office for work because it was 10 minutes closer to home... but forgot to see what the actual hours of pay per week were going to be. If I've done my math correctly... I'mma lost about 150$ a month.

Good to hear your doing okay.