It cuts into the one part of the day i have to myselff

Any parent knows that you can't go straight from doing-stuff to sleep; your brain needs some veg-out stuff to just process things. (I mean, I can sleep, but something unpleasant builds up if you don't let decompression happen)

By the time I've left work, done grocery shopping, made dinner, cleaned up after dinner, done laundry etc, it's already late, and I've had no me-time to just decompress. (especially when chores drag out longer the more tired I get...)

And apart from that, there's a mixture of FOMO, resentment and just clawing-for-agency that makes me rebel against the only boundary I can shift, even though I'm the one that suffers for it.

Nothing gets between me and the best part of the day.

I AM THE NIGHT

the factory must grow

Video games, because I don't have time to play during the day.

23:00 - "One last then I turn it off"

01:45 - "Shit"

because it skips to a time where I have a new day's worth of responsibilities which sucks.

A 2.5 year old and an 8 month old.

I've studied for years and got a well paying job, I cannot just switch to something else without cutting my pay in half. But my work isn't enjoyable, it outright sucks on most days. Going to bed early surrenders the only time of the day I can be happy and skips right to work again.

Adhd

Not wanting to go to bed early.

Spite

Sleep procrastination.

Hyperfixation on random topics. The other day I was so invested in the history of mobile phones that I stayed up until 2:30am by accident while researching useless info.

Late evening is the time where my mind works best.

Wanting to have a life as an adult after our kid goes to bed.

I don't want to die.

What if I die in my sleep.

What if the house catches fire and I can't escape in time because I was asleep.

There are so many other things I could be doing.

I don't have enough life left.

What if I miss something important or cool.

What if there's a burglar when I'm asleep and it goes south and they murder me.

What if I have an aneurysm in my sleep.

What if I have a stroke in my sleep.

What if I have a heart attack in my sleep.

What if there's a gas leak and the house explodes while I'm asleep.

What if there's a CO leak and I just asphyxiate.

What if I just never wake up for no discernible reason.

I wanna play more video games.

I wanna browse the internet more.

I don't want to have the bad thoughts come back like they always do when I try to sleep.

Currently? Back pain.

But in general my brain is dumb and does some dumb stuff.

The other night I wanted a nice cup of earl grey lavender tea to help me relax because I couldn't fall asleep. Problem being was we had ran out of loose leaf tea bags. I dug out the small box of tea strainers we have collected over the year only to find out one hadn't been properly cleaned and was slightly moldy. Others were surface rusted or tarnished.

My sleep deprived brain decided that the best decision was to pull out the dental picks, dremel tool, and other cleaning picks to get these tea strainers in tip top shape.

This is how my wife found me sitting on a bar stool hunched over the kitchen sink deep cleaning tea strainers at 3:30 in the morning.

If I go to bed early, I have to get up and pee at some point during the night. And since it's way too cold, I'll usually lie awake for half and hour before I can actually get myself to leave the bed.

It takes me hours to fall asleep. If I tried to go to bed early, I would pretty much do nothing but work and attempt to sleep.

It's the only time I have to myself

Ever tried to shut down an ADHD brain that has easy access to a multitude of distractions?

working too many hours and having too many hobbies

My brain lol

I can sleep when I'm dead. I need free time.

The fact that I'd just stare at the ceiling till at least 23:00 EVEN THOUGH I WAKE UP AT 4:00 just to be tired the whole day as usual until the sudden energy boost around 18:00.

What's the point of school starting at 7am?
The first class looks like this: Students sleeping on tables, teachers trying to not do the same, the only active group of people is the line at the coffee vending machine.
And the productivity remains greatly reduced for rest of the day.

1½ years ago it used to be 7:50. Apparently too late.
Meanwhile I recently seen a study that even 8:30 might be too early, and giving a new recommendation of 10am.

But it could be worse. I've heard from someone on Reddit that they start at 6am. What the fuck...

I resent every moment I am not awake. It takes away time from me not being at work.

I don't want to and have no reason to

I absolutely love feeling sleepy. There's nothing better than the dark quiet night in my cosy warm bed, with my brain feeling light and my eyelids feeling heavy. I edge that shit for as long as I can.

Procrastination on going to bed.

Insomnia

My brain ignites right before I'm supposed to sleep...it decides to ponder not only existence but nit-pick every choice I've made that day

I'm not tired.