Just enough money to pay off my car, my credit card, and give me 1 year (if that, id probably spend half the time recovering from traveling) to travel and see where I want to go in life.

Edit: funny, now that I'm thinking about it there's that venn diagram joke: Money, time, and Energy. Each stage of your life you get two.

I have no energy, not a lot of money, and plenty of time (except ADHD time blindness so it doesn't do me any fucking good.)

getting rid of Schizophrenia

right now a shower

Less stress. Less worry. More time free to recuperate and enjoy things.

A permanent place to live

cute girl to hug

Ugh, how to tell a depressed dog person I want three cute catgirl girlfriends…

Since hitting my 30s I've started getting really invested in middle aged man shit like sports and history podcasts. It's a cliche and basic in its own way but I'm genuinely surprised by the amount of joy these relatively simple things are bringing me. Especially when I could not have been less interested in sports as a youngster.

The exact amount of money I have in debts at the moment.

If I was 100% debt free I could work 3-4 days a week with the same amount of money left as with debts.

This would reduce stress and give me more time and energy to improve myself

A choice to be? (If only it were that simple.)

Full ride scholarship

Someone who occasionally makes me feel special. It'd be nice to feel special all the time, but I think that's unrealistic. It'd be nice if I could feel special or important on a semi regular basis. Not just useful, like a wrench is useful, but treasured.

The older I get, the more I understand the "lone old man and his dog" stereotype. The dog thinks you're great and everyone else just sees you like a machine that is disposable when they're done with you.

A job that: I'd love, is at a desk, pays well, is project based, asks me to set my own goals, holds me accountable, makes me feel like I'm contributing something positive for other people.

Right now, I would feel more fulfilled in life with something like that.

Relief of stress, which is currently made by lack of money. So money, I guess. I think in smaller terms this chocolate chip banana bread will make me short term happy though.

the only thing that could "make" me happy is a change in mindset, perhaps forced by brain damage.

as far as how I will make my own happiness, it comes down to making choices informed by my own values, painstakingly discovered through mistakes, introspection, and connections with others

Space and time away from everything, fresh air, sunlight, some peace and quiet, a slower and simpler way of life.

Having no needs that anyone else can leverage against me.

A coupl' more of cats

Not having to go into the office. I like my job.

That is the million dollar question, isn't it...

Being well off enough and free of my money problems so that I could quit my night job and devote my free time to helping my friends. I'd also like to have a life where I could become a foster parent because I think I'd be good at that and help families well.