It's an acquired taste.

Hold tight man.

Yeah mate, that's bang on. I was diagnosed at 35, after years of struggling with exactly what you describe. The guilt of 'losing' my adventurous streak, the quiet blame for holding someone else back. The shame is real, feeling like you're never as much as you should or could be. It's what leaves so many of us late diagnosis types scarred and withdrawn.

The turning around point was the diagnosis. Learning why you are experiencing all of that makes all the difference, gives you a frame of reference to deal with it and improve things. Start healing.

Importantly, even if the doctor says you're 'normal', ie no ADHD, it doesn't need to change your approach. Recognising who you are and how your mind works can come from a professional, or it can come from you. If I had been taught as a child to recognise my own patterns and deal with them in my own way, I'd have been much happier despite being undiagnosed. Everyone's fucking weird, some of are just weird enough to get a doctors note (and meds) to go with it. Give yourself some slack, treat your mind with the care it deserves.

I have a Fairphone 4 with LineageOS - it's a couple years old now but runs great. The headphone jack situation was an issue for me too, but I bought a USB-C -> 3.5mm converter for a few euros which now lives in my headphones case, and honestly, it doesn't bother me. Don't let that small point keep you from a good device.

Happy belated birthday! That sucks - I know. I've been struggling this weekend with that perpetual loneliness. I have friends in this city, live with several in fact, but all too often when the weekend comes around everyone has made plans without me and I'm sitting at home on a Saturday night watching shows. It's easy to interpret it as a judgement on myself, that I'm somehow not sufficient ( which I did for years before my diagnosis). It's still not easy, and if I had an answer for you on how to deal with it I'd be a much happier person.

I try to let it just wash past me, accept that we have different patterns which often leaves these large gaps. With a couple of major exceptions, I've learned the only people I can rely on socially are other ND folk - and we're infamously flaky to start with!

I can't really offer advice, but know that you're not alone, it's not just you.

When it hit me, it hit me like a truck. I was diagnosed around 35, and after bouncing through the relief, euphoria, and anger (pretty much as OP described them) I was hit with a crushing sense of loss - I literally felt as though someone close to me had died - but who? I was fortunately in therapy as part of my diagnosis, and it took the doctor to say "Who died? You did." for me to understand. The person I lived my entire life as had ceased to exist - that was a very unhappy person, constantly struggling, constantly suffering for reasons they couldn't see. But it was me, and now they were gone. It was a brutal experience, but it gave me the freedom to start redefining my life.

You got this. Adrenaline is fuel for the fire.

Australian politician with some decidedly fascist tendencies. He's exactly the monster he looks like

Fuck off with that shit. ACAB

Have you read the articles of the genocide convention?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Genocide?wprov=sfla1

Absolutely. I casually drop symptoms and behaviours into conversation all the time with no indication it is anything other than "just the way I am". Noone ever blinks an eye.

Telling them I eat a bucket of pseudo-amph every day just so I remember to eat my lunch would be something else.

This is a very subjective and personal choice - I have only shared with select friends and family members - those I trust to be respectful. I have not told my work/colleagues, because I don't think it's relevant to them. If that changes, I may change my mind. Most importantly, share it when and where you are comfortable. It's your truth, don't feel pressured to share for the reasons or interests of others.

The latest versions of Aurora store have a setting to automatically search in the browser which evades the playstore-side rate limiting. It's a little annoying, but that's on playstore, not aurora.