Heya, friend. I identified strongly with your inner monologue, if not from the same cause. I'm peri menopausal. I hope it brings you a bit of comfort to hear that many other women are having the same thoughts and feelings.
If I can share what's helped me: I went back to a strategy I learned in my adolescent years... Sometimes confidence breeds confidence. I do my best to practice it until it becomes internalized and "exuded."
As you move through your journey, know some old lady in Baltimore is rooting for you.
Roku may dispute that the breach and the TOS change are related, but the timing is certainly suspect.