Man, consumerism is a hot mess.

I love two very sweet trans suicide survivors. One of them, you'd never know. The other has to wear their attempt openly. Life is fucking brutal for a lot of queer folks, let alone trans folks. I think a lot of people see them as ill, or not even human. I watch White Underbelly from time to time (I think that's what it's called). There are a handful of queer/trans individuals on there, including someone who de-transitioned and later unfortunately took their own lives. A lot of people aren't going to talk about it, because saying things out loud can a) make you a target b) get you sent to some kind of ward but I think a lot of transgender people are actively suicidal (I mean you can just look at the statistics). I think a lot of it has to do with the lack of moral support they get as a whole from other people. I think being in state of transition (as in say, not having the medical support you need) is already rough. But when you live with the fact that there are very limited spaces in this world you can actually navigate "safely." Or the fact that most people think you're a freak and would prefer if you would just be "normal" but being "normal" is basically like killing yourself anyways - it's just a brutal space to be in. A lot of the community as a whole is vulnerable. When I was coming up, I had two audacious gays comment about how they don't even understand why we celebrate Pride anymore. It seemed so surreal to me, as they seemed to have been really coming from some kind of place of privilege to not even understand why so many people turn inwards to the community for support. So many people have to live in this space where they are tolerated but not truly accepted. They lose their support networks, and many tend to never make anything as compared to their counterparts. They deal with a lot of emotional baggage that most people never have to bring to their doors. There's a beauty, and curse in the found-family aspect of the queer community. As I think community as a whole is wonderful to cultivate (we're social creatures), but that lot of the queer scenes can promote bad habits (addiction). I think that one comes from the spaces we've been forced to be at so long, but eh!

I don't know who this man is, but I am kind of thankful for that. Personally, I often say a little prayer for folks who are so broken that they find their money through reving folks up via the spin machine spouting hateful shit their kid selves probably would have looked shock to hear them say. We buy in to our bullshit, even if it starts as an act, humans aren't as quick as we'd like to think we are and it's really easy to get lost in the sauce when we socialize as a wave.

I don't know too much about Andrew Tate or his brother. I do know that there is a sort of cruelty that comes with certain individuals who relish in Trump's political gain. They think that the world has gone quite soft, and that survival of the fittest means brute "strength." That it's a dog eat dog world, and they would rather be "top dog," than "bottom bitch." I think sex trafficking is bad, but I often wonder - why is there a market? What cultivates this scene? Cause it can't just be the rich. There's something we're not addressing that very clearly is the elephant in the room. Something between our inherent belief that life is a) precious yet seemingly b) cheap at the same time. Or that socioeconomic status denotes actual value or something. Or even that rowdy women need to shut up or some shit. Idk. There's something that is some very ugly belief that is out there and perhaps even held by the majority of people alive that we either academically/socially have buried that we cannot address because it's something people (used to) just say behind closed doors. I've heard in on all sides too from the poorest to the richest, and all the colors of the rainbow. People are hiding their true feelings as to not ostracize themselves in public (I don't believe in the shit above, I am just saying there is something we're not addressing that needs to be addressed in an intelligent (and perhaps even subversive) way that educates individuals and shifts their skewed views to healthy ones). Eh. I forgot what I was saying as a whole, I am pretty tired of expressing myself here and I wanna go do something I enjoy instead hahaha!

I guess I am just saying - there is an cruel joy that I have seen a lot of people who enjoy media like this hold. I was working with youth when Trump got elected the first time. There are a lot of well of white guys celebrating and laughing in the faces of the various multiethnic folks (especially the black and brown women) when it happened. I don't think these people see punishment of their movement as something healthy. Instead seeing it as an example of how "we the gestapo" would lock all those that don't believe in ANTIFA values up for life if we could. Which puts everything in a us vs them mindset, and they already came to fight which just fuels the fire.

I don't have solutions, and I am not saying individuals who commit crimes shouldn't be punished (is this a double negative?). I am just saying that it's a complex issue, that is made perhaps more complex by the unified idealisms behind the bigotry. For movements grow stronger with unification, and liberalism tends to be a pick and mix smattering of individuals who believe in human rights, but are not as unified. Which outside of the actual cult-like worship - makes the entire republican movement look like cultist. Regardless of how hardcore people are or not.

EH!

Idk yet again, if any of this made sense - it's just what came to mind in response. I hope it makes sense to you and I am not trying to pick a fight or anything. I just am a me =P! And while I would love to still invoke the angry feminist I was growing up, I really have mellowed out with age and just kinda like...wanna chill even if everything is shit. Cause if they're coming for folks, they sure as fuck are coming for me. So I guess I might as well enjoy what I got, while I got it and plan for the worst if I gotta hit it.

I saw one other Polygon writer who found interesting indies trying to rally support to stay independent and financially well and I don't think they reached what they wanted. It actually seems really hard to stay financially flushed without selling your soul or having a service that a lot of people truly want to use. It stinks. Of course, this is just my observations, I don't actually know and you can always give your grant-writing skills some practice to get financial support.

I mean, I am all for failure as a whole. Cause it really is true what they say about the growth being in the action of failure. I also like tactics, but I like to have the space to think on the tactics I am enduring. I think it's cool that a game introduced that in a very action-oriented way. There seems to be a lot of creativity in the creatures as well, which I like. I will say as I get older my reaction time has lessened even worse than I'd say it originally was. I never played shooters or anything, although I had friends go ham on them. I think perhaps it might be an incongruity with what I want out of a game with swords x boss battles. The game I think of when I think of big papa boss battles is Shadow of the Colossus. Cause it's pretty much the only one I have ever played like that. I feel the game though, while exciting, is actually pretty slowly paced. Which makes it more accessible to me. Most "sword" games though, I want to play like a dumb-dumb. I wanna hack, slash, and feel all powerful. Smash everything in sight (Dynasty Warriors). I think the two clashing might also be making it difficult for me to pick it up.

But I guess the third thing is that pretty much any time I have grabbed a game that is hyper popular nowadays I don't really seem to like it much. That might be an age thing too, idk. Might be a lot of things, but I generally think I might not be the audience for most AAA games. In fact, I know I am not =P!

I think of the lot of them the two that would be the most interesting to me would be Dark Souls and Elden Ring. I didn't have an X-box and I left gaming for quite some time. So I didn't even know about any of these games until I came back. I like the idea of sneaking around a castle slowly. I liked it in Ico at least. So I figured it might be like that. Idk too much about it though.

Yeah, this is how I feel sort of in general. I think as I get older. If I am not having fun, it doesn't really seem worth the venture. No matter how pretty something is, or how good everyone says something is. I also think often a lot of these games aren't really designed with a player like me in mind. Which is fine, cause I suppose I am a minority in gaming. I just figured if someone could make a Soulslike that mobile gamers could play (easy enough to adapt) they'd make a mint.

Many moons ago people used to laugh at me because I listened to Flying Lotus, no lie! Old boy is still here, and he's been making the best wabi-sabi jams for years.

Holy jam, these are so cute and I think I might gather some cardboard and create a sensory deprivation chamber I once sat in many moons ago with something like this. I didn't think about how you could use plastic screws to fortify cardboard builds you make. Thank you!

That's exactly how I feel actually. No worries, I hope you like it =)! The music is made by the Stardew Valley guy. It's really such a cute game.

Ty poop, I love your name btw =) This game goes on sale for five bucks all the time if you're not a buy it at full price kind of person. It really is a great game though, I think it's one of my most played as a whole. It works great on both a controller, as well as a mouse and keyboard. It's really a wonderful little journey as long as you're okay with abstract and crunchy graphics =)

Oh yeah, this is a good idea too. When I used to work at a mom and pop we did this. I forgot about it until you said something. We did use our own air compressor and bubble wrap (not sure what to call this packaging otherwise, but it's those tubular inflatable packaging materials) for delicate glass materials. Otherwise everything else was just a reused product. Solid suggestion =)!

Have any visuals for the collages? Would love to see them with my peepers.

I will look into these, thanks for the post. I just wanted to throw a game I love that's indie into the mix. It's got over a hundred reviews, but it's not rolling in reviews as a whole. Intergalactic Fishing is a really fun game that I tell everyone I know who games to play because I loved it so much. It's a little goofy game, and I have played it in a variety of ways. It's very calming, and equally it's very manageable as you can alter the time of day easily instead of forever grinding to catch all the fish. I should probably put together a list of games at some point myself. Cause I like some weirduns =)!

Wanted to sneak back and suggest people also check out Wilderplace. It is a puzzle game with hand-drawn graphics where you play as an elementalist who needs to alter the location of trickster like spirits to maneuver through the map. The game is turn-based, however the time in which the character can contain the spirits is limited per type. It's really cute, and I think it flew drastically under the radar.