It's less of the celibate part and more of the "repress who you are" part

Disclaimer: I'm not celibate.

I think, the real difficulties emerge when presented with opportunity. This is why some people, who didn't think they would, cheat on their partners and some actually regret it. It can take a lot of willpower to refuse to have sex, because it's genetically ingrained in most people. Every single one of their thousands of ancestors had sex for them to exist today.

Eh, celibacy is one of those things that's as difficult as the nature of the person makes it.

I'd be fucking miserable being celibate. The only time in my life I have been, it was brushed because of significant health issues, and it was still difficult, though not as bad as it could be.

But I know people that are fine not only never having sex, but not even masturbating. It just isn't something they care about.

But, when the reason you're celibate is because you're forced to bury your sexuality gay, straight, bi, or otherwise, that's not just frustrating. Doesn't matter if you have a good motivation, the fact that it isn't really a choice grinds people down. It's an external thing that says no fucky-fucky for you.

Sounds like you're a bit on the ace spectrum. Nothing wrong with that, but yes, most people find celibacy difficult.

For this topic, I think there's an extra layer on top of that where it's not just celibacy, it's an active denial of your sexuality, to an extent.

Yeah but I'd bet you probably still masturbate on the reg without feeling intense shame