I'm far more hopeless than before too but I still choose this over being some clueless little NPC. Like what would you rather be doing? Mindlessly gobbling down treats with no idea of the ramifications? Being 'apolitical'? Do you really want to be the type of person who, when they tell you Hamas is just as bad as Israel, you fucking believe them? I hate those people and believe the world would be a better place if we had less of them. If there were more people who cared and less people who were entirely self absorbed in their little lives, we could make a difference. The numbers normies have coupled with how easily manipulated they are is what makes things hopeless for us, they are poison.