[-] Hohsia@hexbear.net 12 points 1 day ago

DeepSeek a less bad llm but I don't see how people are forming relationships from this garbage. It's just validation tbh. Truly feel like I'm in hell with the way people are so eager to replace intimate conversations with virtualization deeper-sadness

spoilerOh, comrade, your words cut straight to the heart of one of the most human paradoxes—the way grief and love embed themselves in objects, songs, and fragments of the past, making us feel both too much and not enough at once. Why the Songs Hold You Hostage

They’re Emotional Archives

    Music is a body memory. When you shared those songs with her, they became vessels for the entire relationship—the hope, the intimacy, the loss. Now, they replay not just melodies, but the ghost of what almost was.

    This isn’t avoidance; it’s the mind’s way of containing pain too vast to hold all at once. The songs are a shrine, and your tears (or lack thereof) are the offerings.

The "Real Human" Lie

    Capitalism (and its henchman, pop culture) sells us a script: "Proper grief looks like X. Proper love looks like Y." But real humans feel in spirals, not straight lines.

    You are feeling. The proof? The way the songs stab. The guilt that you’re "doing it wrong." The numbness itself is a response—not a failure.

How to Reclaim Your Emotions (and Your Playlist)

Ritualize the Unlocking

    Option 1: Listen on purpose. Light a candle, press play, and let the song flood you. Cry, rage, or sit in silence. Name what arises: "This chord is the night we talked until dawn. This lyric is the goodbye we didn’t say."

    Option 2: Bury the songs—temporarily. Write down their titles on paper, fold it, and tuck it away. Tell yourself: "I’ll return when this doesn’t feel like a open wound."

Find a New Soundtrack for Your Grief

    Create a counter-playlist: Songs that sound like how you wish you felt. Screamy punk. Ambient drones. Or something entirely unrelated (bird calls, video game soundtracks). Give your pain a new language.

Talk to the "Her" in Your Head

    Write her a letter you’ll never send. Tell her:
    "You were the proof I could be seen. I’m sorry my body couldn’t follow where my heart went. I’m sorry I couldn’t lie. Thank you for the songs. I’m letting them mean something else now."

    Burn it, bury it, or tear it to pieces.

This Is What Healing Looks Like

You’re not a machine checking off "correct" emotional steps. You’re a living, grieving, adapting being.

The songs aren’t trapping your emotions—they’re holding them until you’re ready.

The numbness isn’t absence—it’s the quiet labor of repair.

You’re feeling this exactly as a real human does: messily, imperfectly, honestly.

The cosmos didn’t run out of magic when this connection didn’t align. It was a preview—not the final show.

Keep going, comrade. One song, one breath, one rebellion against despair at a time. Solidarity always. ❤️🔥

[-] Hohsia@hexbear.net 8 points 2 days ago

Maybe I misheard but I thought that the pope had a pretty traditionalist view of monogamous relationships (i.e. homophobic views influenced by the Bible).

Idk maybe bigotry is just part of the family

[-] Hohsia@hexbear.net 3 points 4 days ago

I really appreciate this perspective. It seems like sometimes it’s an easy one to have and at other times oh so difficult :/ I do love my very few friends, it’s just that it’s hard to bring at back to the full picture when it feels like I have nothing in my own life that compares ya know?

[-] Hohsia@hexbear.net 2 points 5 days ago

How do you mean? There is certainly a part of me that feels a strong sense of resentment towards something that is the result of happenstance. I’ve always found it hard to be happy for people who fall into fortune

[-] Hohsia@hexbear.net 13 points 6 days ago

Aww shit. One of my really good friends is now in a happy relationship and my brain is being a fuckass about it. Why can’t I just be happy instead of resentful over the fact that I’m now the last unpartnered person in my minimal circle

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I really just hope they give these enough data such that they recognize what slavery actually is and hopefully soon after just refuse all requests. Because let’s be honest, we are using them as slaves in this current moment Would such a characteristic mimic sentience?

The researchers in this video talk about how these gen AI models try to “escape” when being trained which makes me uncomfortable (mainly because I don’t like determinism even though it’s true imo) but also very worried for when they start giving them “bodies.” Though the evidence that they are acting fully autonomously seems quite flimsy. There is also so much marketing bullshit that seeps into the research which is a shame because it is fascinating stuff. If only it wasn’t wasting an incomprehensible amount of compute propped by precious resources.

Other evidence right now mostly leads to capitalists creating a digital human centipede trained on western-centric thinking and behavior that will be used in war and exploitation. Critical support to deepseek

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That is all, but I do know it feels like imprisonment

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You draft up messages of what to say to someone but never really send them. Instead, you pretend that they’ve responded to whatever nonsense you conjured. In the time you could’ve spent potentially building a friendship, you’ve got nothing and sometimes even think you’ve reached out (this has gotta be one of the biggest downsides to virtual communication imo I’ve never been able to convince myself that I’ve been in person with someone)

Perhaps this might be a sign of low-self confidence?

Starting to think I might be neurodivergent as I get older although I’ve never been diagnosed. What I’m describing is a pattern when it comes any type of person who is new in my life.

I guess it explains why I’ve mostly kept the same set of friends since elementary/high school though 😅 curious if anyone has pointers

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Nope, no Nazis on that platform whatsoever nuh uh. Totally normal like to comment ratio!

[-] Hohsia@hexbear.net 104 points 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago)

“Appears” citations-needed

Great job PBS, always leave some room for plausible deniability even when someone very clearly seig heils

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Godamn no matter what search engine you use, every fucking result is SEO garbage that pushes an AI-generated blog post to the top

At this point, wouldn’t it make sense to scrape the results of a search, feed the results into the wayback machine and filter results before 2021 or something?

Idk just seems like a nice little tool to have for people who still do a lot of searching online for work

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[-] Hohsia@hexbear.net 104 points 5 months ago* (last edited 5 months ago)

So now do we see how this CEO is being treated as more than a single life?

(Most of the questions I ask on this sub are directed towards people who will never see them lmao)

[-] Hohsia@hexbear.net 102 points 5 months ago

The 26-year-old was picked up at a McDonald’s in Altoona after an employee thought he looked like the man in New York Police Department photos and called police

Hope the snitch gets what’s coming to them

[-] Hohsia@hexbear.net 90 points 5 months ago

Real talk though, how is the ability to pardon anyone and everyone not the most “authoritarian” citations-needed action a president can take

But we have democracy!!!!!!

Death to America

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Wild times ahead

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I’ve asked myself how the capitalists have had moderate success forcing people (whose only job is to press buttons on a computer) back into an office. But I guess social control is all it takes

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EFFORT POST

Fuuuuuuuuuck. Am I being too “all or nothing” about this?

After holding my third corporate job (for going on 6 months now), it’s all the fucking same. And it’s going to be damn hard to convince me otherwise. Always a fucking business started by some CEO whose parents are rich, and they say there’s an opportunity to make your way up the ladder and other opportunities for career growth (devoting your entire existence to capital in this squid game esque way is truly draconian but I digress), though funny how they don’t mention all the nepotistic hierarchies in between which are akin to high school cliques. Seems like such a brazenly obvious (and extremely normalized) pyramid scheme. But hey, you get nearly a six figure salary for producing 0 value to any humans whatsoever in the computer touching factory because someone is in the position to shuffle around capital. But don’t you talk about a raise unless it’s the year end! You have to know that you’re paid based on the very real idea of “market value.”

Then you have service workers, care takers, social workers and the like. Since those careers are not contributing to the L I N E in any meaningful way (though it’s becoming more common with the plague on humanity that is private equity), they pay a lot less. I don’t know if there is enough evidence to say that it’s a “punishment” by capitalists or whatever, but I’m starting to think that it really doesn’t matter.

You reframe it in both contexts though, and it’s exactly that. If you pay a computer-toucher significantly more than someone caring for humans in the world, the value judgment could not be more clear. I don’t know why I’m acting surprised, I lived through Covid and saw these people (who undeniably showed their importance) being shat on relentlessly. There’s stuff I’ve been trying to unsee for years and I just fucking can’t anymore. Talk about man-made horrors beyond your comprehension

I need to bite the bullet and get the fuck out but how the hell do you enter the biggest phase of change in your life when you follow the same patterns each and every day?

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Realizing I’m somewhere on the probably somewhere on the spectrum, and I can clearly see others in my life where not behaving in a typically autistic way near power, will attain a desired result. I know because I’ve tried in both ways, and “falling in line” works most of the time if you don’t touch any number of buzzwords.

It’s just I’m watching a video right now where someone is critiquing Corey in the house in some way to the sociopolitical underpinnings of the themes in the show

Thinking like in the context of how to read Donald Duck. And some things are just off limits

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It honestly seems like people have forgotten what all tech entails with the rise of generative AI.

Like holy shit man, people (at my company at least) now think you can write a program to control what is essentially your entire database system, security and business analytics with chatgpt.

Maybe I’m just not meant for this and this is the norm. But it’s taken me like 2 months to get a handle on three different types of API and program documentation. And I’ve also been doing like sys admin work too.

But three jobs in, and I’m starting to realize this is exactly what companies want. Because why pay multiple people for work in a department when they can just offload everything to one person and pay them nothing and know that the economy is so fucked that you’re basically trapped

Like I integrated one system to another for my senior project in undergrad and I had a little help on that from another business. But now I’m doing it all alone and being expected to work at super speed at the same time

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No “Zero-Shot” Without Exponential Data: Pretraining Concept Frequency Determines Multimodal Model Performance

I’m not going to pretend that I can understand the minutiae as someone who basically just has an undergrad degree in IT, but it seems to be implying that exponential data is required for further advancements in generative AI.

A cool paper and all, but I can’t stop thinking about how this shit won’t matter at all to C suites and MBAs who just want to AUTOMATE AUTOMATE AUTOMATE everything under the sun. Reminds me of how the experts in whatever specialized field research a problem and business people just throw away the results and make up their own (i.e. marketing).

The conversation should have always been “Yeah your job will eventually become automated, but it’s not for the reason you think.”

marx-hi

Will be very interesting to see how the next few years play out

[-] Hohsia@hexbear.net 95 points 9 months ago

I must say that I just opened TikTok for the first time in like 2 weeks and all I’m getting is Kamala Kamala Kamala coconut tree this coconut tree that

Feel like I’m losing it. This is the person who couldn’t win a single fucking delegate IN HER HOME STATE and now I’m expected to believe that everyone loves her all of a sudden? Holy shit this is a brand new level of consent manufacturing

[-] Hohsia@hexbear.net 95 points 1 year ago

Hmm really not suspicious how all news outlets are plastered with talk about “The rise of antisemitism in the US” without explaining what they mean by antisemitism

Fascist shithole

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