My uncle is very right-wing, racist, and a bit transphobic, as he thinks I'll always be a girl. Here's the thing: he apparently beat his ex-wife, causing her to leave his house and eventually divorce him. Since then, for about 13 years, he complains about not having her as a wife despite already having a new wife, can't move on, and BLAMES HIS EX-WIFE for not wanting him anymore and thinks women are inherently evil.

He also thinks women are meant to "obey" him and kinda uses his current wife for her money. And beat her too...

hi. its me. i took a long break. just take a look at @drbollocks@lemmy.blahaj.zone if you wanna see how shitty a person i was and how bad my mental health was. i said people hated me for my autism but maybe not everyone was against me, and maybe it wasn't my autism. maybe we were all just shitty people.

hell, i posted my SUICIDE online with a voice recording. i acknowledge that i wasn't right in the head, please forgive me for the things i've done.

people have called me a troll in the past, i can guarantee that i'm not, i was just a mentally sick teen.

but in case anyone was wondering what happened to me or if i was still alive, i am :)

does anyone remember me? i hope not lol...

It should be your choice what bathroom you use. Even if you "look like a man" but are a woman, you should be able to use the women's bathroom without being attacked. Same goes for men who "look like women", in their words. Also, if a man "looks like a woman" or looks feminine but says his pronouns are he/him and that he's a man, his pronouns are he/him and he's a man.

I feel like I'm preaching to the choir here, but I can't STAND IT. I'm a cis lesbian for crying out loud but at least I'm not like Arielle Scarcella or whatever the hell her name is.

I literally have no friends irl or any relationships at all, not even family. Many often I feel so horrible because of my isolation and loneliness.

I need some hope, have any of you had life experiences with extreme loneliness but built relationships?

So, yeah, my uncle's kind of an ass. I am bigender or genderfluid or something and I use masculine and feminine pronouns, names, and genders interchangeably. However, I tried to come out to my uncle and he said I would always be a "female", nothing could change it, and being trans was just a load of horseshit.

Yeah, I used to be a right-winger but I changed... I found some profile on Reddit who looked innocent, it was a girl being like "Your typical internet girl ^_^" but the stuff she said were like "gay people are disgusting, I would NEVER date a bisexual man because he probably fucked a dude", talking about how lesbians were evil, how immigrants were evil "things" and how they don't deserve to be here documented even but also claims to care about immigrants and is like "I don't want forced labour on these poor immigrants :,(" like which one is it? Are immigrants tools who deserve torture in prison camps or are they worthy of rights just like us natives?

Cough cough, it's the latter.

Also, if you're American, you white people aren't Native Americans so your ancestors were immigrants too.

However, this girl was Polish so she is European so I can't make that argument and apply it to her, but I can to the Americans.

This almost sounds Nazi-like anyway... At least with her behavior... seems like every typical right-winger behaves this way though.

My girlfriend before high school, had a friendship with 3 girls. Girl 1 claimed to be bi and later a lesbian but was straight and hung out with homophobic spoiled girls. Girl 2 claimed to be bi too and later an ally but then said she was actually homophobic and Christian. Girl 3 is extremely Christian, all 3 girls are Christian. She is anti-transition, defends Trump, and also wants to mass murder anti-Christians and abolish their religions or lack thereof.

None of these people seem like allies, they seem like virtue signalers.

I hate when my family is like “She’s homophobic!?!? She’s my kind of person, she’s smart” or something like that and say I should be friends with her but all she does is bully me, like do you want your kid to befriend a bully??

The biggest issue I've been seeing as an intellectual myself (in my case, as an autistic young man who doesn't accept mainstream answers for anything, simplistic answers, and believes Ockham's Razor is weaponized).

Most of it has been destroyed in the past couple of years because of a religious plantation of sorts I was in for a long time (my producer, Neigsendoig, was in similar slavery for 22 years, and he's 23). However, another part of my shell breaking is what I'm listening to, which is this audiobook (yes, it's an Invidious link) by Ash G (his pseudonym, I'd imagine). Myself and Neigsendoig are going through quite a journey right now, making it to where we might end up being shunned by those who don't understand, just because we can't really dumb things down. Our autism doesn't really help with it either, though I will point out that we have special interests that include local-first computing and numerology.

That, and we're getting information from a ton of different sources, as the link I provided was just one of them. The Survival Podcast by Jack Spirko is another recommendation I would make (it's also on YouTube, but both Neigsendoig and I would recommend viewing it either with a podcast player or an Invidious instance), as another example. David Nikao Wilcoxson is also one we'd recommend on the religious side of things (I've been kicked from a Mastodon instance for that alone).

All of this is overwhelming to me, but I'm attempting to keep it to a minimum and do what I need to do (same with Neigsendoig). It's hard, though won't be worth it if I don't suffer and become refined like gold (at least, in theory).

1: The girl that said she was bi and that she was a lesbian but only liked guys and said that she wasn't actually attracted to women. Hangs out with homophobic spoiled "popular" girls.

2: The girl that said she believed in equal rights and LGBTQ rights and claimed to be an ally but also says she's bi "as a joke", then says she's actually homophobic and treats the "weirder" kids as subhuman.

3: The girl that went through a trans and lesbian "phase", as she calls it, but then says she's straight and is also anti-transition.

We ditched the trio long ago when we found out their true colors. Girl 3 also hated Girl 2 but ended up defending her.

I live in an area where people ask you where you're from and if you actually live in the neighborhood. They may assume you don't speak English, like they have with my wife.

ICE has already gone through the town nextdoor, and I'm waiting for our turn. I'm light-skinned, but my wife and kids are dark with Mayan features. I fear that all anyone has to do to terrorize my family is call a hotline. We have all our citizenship documentation, but that doesn't matter anymore.

I keep waiting for the day when I'm going to have to defend my family, but I might not even be around when things take place. What if they come take my wife while she's at work? What if she goes shopping and never comes back?

I have nothing without my family. I have nothing.

My only hobby is shopping, even if I can't afford it I prefer to not eat if I can get new shoes, jewelry, clothes... I don't understand how I ended up like this.

As a kid I was the complete opposite... I didn't demand any toys. But I guess my teenage years were too traumatic causing me so much self-consciousness about myself.

Now I have a very high maintenance appearance, clothes, jewelry and stilettos make me feel better about that void. The compliments I receive on the street feed this fake ego I'm building.

I've become so selfish I think I care more about getting what I want more than I care about people. People are disgusting and evil and deserve all the bad that happens to them, but a nice dress? There's nothing wrong it could do.

The only reason I have friends is so that they praise my appearance. There's no point in looking good if no one notices it.

So a few years ago I worked as a stripper for like a year and a half to pay for some things. Looking back I really regret doing it. I'm always about people finding out about it in the future and it effecting my employability. So far nobody except a few friends know about and I hope to keep it that way but I'm worried that in the future it could come back to bite me.

Is there anyway I can keep this thing permanently hidden and if not then what should I do in the future if someone finds out? Like, how badly would it effect my image and is there anything I can do about it? What do I say to people of they find out?

So, like on my last post I said, this guy was very awkward and would always say "Hi, how's your day?" every day when he saw us or something similar. I guess it was a force of habit, but we got really tired of his awkwardness. He constantly called him annoying, yelled at him, insulted him, my friend even threatened him and treated him like a sub-human monster and told him he wasn't worthy of being near us. We made him cry multiple times and even contemplate suicide. It was BAD. He was angry at us for a while, but I DID apologize, so that's good.

Now, I've been thinking. This guy and I are friends now, and I deeply regret my actions.

They have this weird quirk where they sit at the kitchen table instead of the comfy couches they have in their living room.

They spend hours sitting in these high back wooden chairs and I do not understand why.

This country doesn't work anymore. That's all.

No arguments. No reasons. Just better.

This applies to those in other countries, but especially America, since we're in one of the worst times imaginable right now, and it's getting worse before it gets better.

https://www.inolongerconsent.com/

Hi, so I kinda have a problem. I like watching people sleep. Ever since I was a kid, I'd get a weird tingly feeling seeing characters on TV sleep, even if it wasn't real. Then, I discovered sleep streams on a dare. At first, I watched them as a joke, but then they became actually attractive to me and I want someone to do that with me.

My recent channel I've seen is Violet Lottie...

I'm so glad I don't talk to him or see him much anymore since I graduated, he went to my high school and even from what I heard about him from others, he's still the same. Teachers have reported that he is racist, he doesn't like immigrants though he claims only the "illegal" ones, and isn't particularly fond of anyone who isn't neurotypical, able-bodied, cis, white, straight, rich, or any of that.

(lemming.world wasn't working for me so I'm on this account)

So, my dad is "hardcore Conservative". All he does is watch videos where the Conservative right-winger is portrayed as "always right" and he "owns"/"defeats" the liberal or leftist.

All the videos I hear about are mocking Arabs and Latinos, immigrants, and queer people, it's so annoying. And he goes on these rants about how evil they are, too, and he would probably think I was "forced" to become a lesbian and that the school I'm in "made" me.

My health insurance premium went up 27% this year. I used to pay $123 a month, starting January I will be paying $169 a month. That $46 a month is coming out of my grocery budget I guess. I've been going to a church every weekend and getting free bread. Most of the food pantries have hours during when I'm working, so that's out. I'm already doing shit like swiping TP and garbage bags from work to so I can purchase less of those things. I'm wearing my clothes indefinitely without washing if they aren't visibly soiled or stinky, and handwashing everything else and hanging it up to dry to save on laundry costs. I Cook everything from scratch at home. I don't own a car, cycle to work daily or take the bus during really bad weather. Outside of a 150 train ride to visit family, I get to take an actual vacation once per decade. I'm sleeping on the floor because my mattress is almost 20 years old and so uncomfortable. Once ever 7 - 10 years I upgrade my PC. I don't have cable or streaming services.

I'm lucky and I know it. I'm so scared for families with children, and people that don't have regular hours at their jobs or decent coverage through their work, and can't afford to self pay premiums via commercial plans. Families that were paying $700-800 a month for insurance are going to see those premiums go up even more. I can't imagine trying to feed an entire family on the pay we get. I'm paying $1300 for a one bedroom, I can't imagine having to rent a 2 or 3 bedroom. I feel like I'm barely hanging on, and I don't have the resources to help anyone else. Where I work there are tons of panhandlers are walking around hitting people up for food or money. 10 years ago, there were 0 panhandlers. The panhandlers are getting aggressive too. I had one put his hands on me when I told him up front I was having a bad day, I didn't want to talk to another human being at all, and I didn't have any $ to give, so save the story.

Stop the world, I want to get off this ride.

So, I (15F) have a girlfriend Amy (17F). But I'm polyamorous so I'm also talking to another girl Elizabeth (15F). I started talking to Elizabeth after a mutual friend introduced me to her and we're getting to know each other and find out if we like each other. We also are gonna video call and plan to meet up.

However, Elizabeth is also a trans girl so Dad won't let me see her if he knows she's trans, so I have to say she's a boy (she uses any pronouns, so...) and I will just use her more masculine/gender-neutral name "Alex".

Also, how do I have sex with her, because I'm curious, without getting pregnant and having my family know what's going on?

Elizabeth is also really freaky, us being teens and all, and I feel like she's changing me with her views on sex and all. My mutual friend of hers said she would definitely fuck me if we met up and started dating, and like I said, I am curious. I just don't understand what happened to turn me from mainly asexual/ace spectrum to really horny for this person.

I will not be impulsive and just get to know her more but DAMN. She (or the picture she sent of me) is also CUTE???

So, my dad and uncle both dislike immigrants and think they're all undocumented. Also, my uncle thinks only white people exist in Europe and he "likes it that way" despite it not being true.

Also, my uncle wishes the U.S., where I live, would be all-white and our ancestors are immigrants too because we're not Native Americans.

Weird...

Like, they're also fine with white immigrants (my dad), but my uncle hates all immigrants and they're always like "Speak English!" when they hear a Hispanic person talk...

I know I already posted here, but my aunt (who is my dad's brother's wife) is so rude to me. One time she tried to hit me, called me names, called me a "weirdo" and stuff, and thought I was subhuman and abnormal.

So hi, my friend said made a post (now deleted) asking for advice on my situation. Well, now I will vent about it. So this woman seemed nice and said she could read my future. I knew it was fake but it seemed fun and innocent, and it was free so I said sure.

She asked for a picture of my palm. Nothing bad, right?

And keep in mind I'm only a sophomore in high school, 15 years old. She then asked so she could do more "accurate readings" on stuff like who my future girlfriend would be, she had to get photos of my chest and hipbones and asked for more and more revealing skin each time.

Gross.

So I blocked her but I feel bad and I'm still kinda attached and regret blocking her because she said she would introduce me to a friend who was also a 15 yr old sophomore but then she wouldn't give away who it was right away and I didn't wanna keep this up.

I absolutely love Wikipedia. It has almost replaced a good chunk of my school books back when I was in high school and it is still very useful now that I'm in university. Wikipedia and similar things are a dream that comes true