I’ve been in this weird headspace lately where life is just… strange. On the surface, everything is fine. I go to work, eat relatively healthy, try to stay on top of errands, keep things running — the usual. But underneath it all, there's this constant feeling of dull pressure, like I'm being stretched thin by things that don’t really matter. It’s like I’m always busy, but rarely present.

Every day feels packed, but nothing sticks. I go through the motions, check off tasks, scroll a bit, eat, sleep, repeat. I end the day drained, like I ran a marathon in my head — but can’t really remember anything meaningful that happened. It’s not burnout in the dramatic sense, just this low-grade hum of tiredness and disconnection that never really turns off.

Socially, things have gotten quieter too. I barely see my friends anymore. Most of them are still into drinking and going out — stuff that used to feel exciting but now just feels... loud and repetitive. There was no big falling out. Just different rhythms now. Slower ones. And sometimes I sit with that and wonder if it’s just part of growing up, or if something deeper got lost along the way.

And then my brain starts spinning, usually late at night, when everything’s quiet. I start thinking about the future — and it honestly kind of scares me. Not in a dramatic, apocalyptic way, but in that creeping "things-are-moving-too-fast" way. AI is suddenly everywhere. Wars are happening in the background of our everyday lives. Economies feel fragile. Everything seems more unstable than it used to be, like we’re just pretending things are normal while the ground shifts under us.

And weirdly, my mind keeps drifting back to 2006. I don’t even know why exactly — maybe because it felt slower. Simpler. The internet was just fun and weird, not all-consuming. There were fewer screens, fewer existential threats in the news feed. Boredom existed, but it didn’t feel dangerous — it felt open. It felt like space to breathe. Now everything feels compressed, even rest.

I don’t think I’m depressed. I’m not miserable. But I feel… detached. Like I’m watching my life from the outside, waiting for it to feel like mine again. There’s this quiet emptiness running underneath everything, like background static. Not loud enough to break me, just enough to make everything feel slightly out of tune.

Anyone else feel like this? Have you figured out how to shake it — or at least live with it in a way that makes sense?

I am so exhausted.

My older brother has to be the most selfish egoistic person that exists on this planet. When I meet him everything is "fine" he talks like the friendliest person ever, always has a positive opinion about things and can generally talk very well.

My grandpa died a few months ago so my mother and her brother got the inheritance. Since my mother didn't want anything and left it to her brother our state by law asks the children of the next generation if they want to accept or refuse inheritance.

So my mom didnt want it and she told us to not accept it either. It would be 25% for me and 25% for him.

I said sure, fine - my brother was still thinking about it cause we own a small little "land".

Long story short: My brother talked with my oncle before hand and begged to give him the property and he wouldn't accept the inheritance in exchange. I didn't know about the deal and during all this I questioned the land with my mother and my brother as well but my brother kept saying: "We can't do that, it wouldnt be right to accept the inheritance if mom said we shouldn't."

End of story: I didn't accept it (moral reasons), my brother didn't accept it but he got the land and is now bragging around that he owns land.

I couldn't care less, I got my own stuff but I hate how he handled this whole shi.t making me look like a greedy dude in front of my mother cause I questioned it but during that time he already had a deal with my oncle about it.

Man I hate people.

This isn't the only thing I noticed. I am seeing very clearly 35 years too late. Everytime we go out with his kids I pay for his coffee, I pay entrance to stuff for his kids cause he says "You are the oncle you gotta do it once in a while". Last weekend I visited him for a coffee in his area and we went to the local coffee shop again. I already invited him 5 times and this time he said he would pay. Right before we had to pay he said he has to use the toilet and disapeared for 10 minutes until I was done paying. He does pulls that off every single time.

It's hilarious cause I never really bothered about those small things. Even my father, my stepfather and mother say he is a selfish person and my mother basically disinherited him a few years ago so I will be getting most of my mothers stuff when she passes away.

Yesterday was easter sunday. He visited the "new property" with his wife and children but only invited his wifes family to the BBQ event he planned for his new "yard". My mother, lives about 1 mile away from the property and she didn't get invited. It was her property. She was so mad when she found out they didnt invite her.

My mom called me and said it was the stupidest idea ever to let her brother have everything and if she would have known that my brother did such a deal she wouldn't have let this all happen. Now she has to live with the fact my brothers wifes family being on her old property. I cant pack this whole thing in the topic here but my mother isnt "good" with his wife.

I know I didnt get "ripped off" because I didnt own anything here. But I feel like my brother screwed me. I know I shouldnt feel this way cause it was never my inheritance to begin with.

This has impacted my life so negatively I don't even know where to start.

My friends and I started drinking at 17 and went out almost every weekend. Every year we had huge events like festivals (Germany has many) and well those were like 3 days being drunk in a row.

If i could turn back time I'd probably just tell myself to not do it and probably do it again anyways.

I'm getting invested in the gym and it's so good. I wonder how I'd look like today if I would have just been at the gym in my 20s.

Not only that. I wonder how my friend circle would look like cause currently I have no friends I'd consider "friends". Those were all drinking buddies. They still drink every weekend and more and more I realised they are just functioning alcoholics.

And since I don't drink anymore (2 years) I'm basically out.

So I'd say alcohol didn't only have a negative impact on my brain while I was still young (and after) it also hit my wallet, my time for better things (sports).... etc.

Man. Sucks. Sucks to be me.

Now I am happy I have a wife, a house and going in the right direction but it is soooo hard to find friends or atleast people if you aren't in school anymore and coworkers busy with own life.

If I could give anyone younger advice I'd just stay screw it and go to the gym and find a hobby like climbing, swimming, golfing, tennis or something and get people there.

I remeber 2006 I was in the 6th grade, all the world cup songs, chilling at my local lake with friends, ... maybe it was just because I was a young kid.

But now I think a lot about the 2000s.

I was able to download and Listen to All Songs of 60s, 70s, 80s, and the 2000s had great songs too.

Like Linken Park with Breaking a Habit or Red Hot Chili Peppers with Snow.

It was also a time I spent a long time in Azeroth (WoW) but also a lot of time in real life with friends.

Right now at this moment my job is awesome, I earn enough money, have a wife,... but I cant recreate the Summers of 2000s.

I said it in 2015 those were the best days and now a decade later I still say it. The 2016s to 2019s were also great. But not like 2005 to 2009. Something about those years that gives me a cozy Feeling.

Sonetimes I think Corona ruined everything. Nothing is back to how it was pre 2020. People are so confused, lie and cant tell the difference between fake news and Real news, all only on the phones.

This feels like Im living in a Shell that is empty now. And all this being said my Life SHOULD now be better than in 2006. I have a great job, money, more free time... but dunno.

Anyone else feel this?

I am not talking about the MRT system. I see that everyday.

I am currently in Singapore and I swear I haven't seen daylight in two days. My hotel is directly connected to this MRT and Mall. I am just underground and everything is so huge down here.

I wonder is this a city under the city?

It was all fun and games two years ago when most AI videos were obvious (6 fingers, 7 fingers, etc.).

But things are getting out of hand. I am at a point I'm questioning if Lemmy, Reddit, Youtube comments etc. are even real. I wouldn't even be suprised if I was playing Overwatch 5v5 with 9 AIs while three of them are programmed to act like kids, 4 being non toxic etc..

This whole place could just be an illusion.

I can't prove it. Its really less fun now.

The upside is I go to the gym more frequently and just hang out with people I know are 100% real. Nothing worse than having a conversation with AI person. It was just an average 7/10 like I am an average 5/10 so I thought it could be a real thing but turned out I was chatting with AI. A 7/10 AI. The creator made the person less perfect looking to make it more realistic.

Nice. What is the point of internet when everything is fake but can't even or only be identified as fake with deep research.

I'm 32 and I know many young people who also hate it. To be fair I only know people who hate on AI nowadays. This has to end.

So four weeks into the new year most regulars are at my gym and two of the 50 new people stayed.

Maybe someone is here who is one of the vanished people that I can "bait" back to the gym, atleast is my hope. So now real talk:

BRO, it's four weeks. FOUR WEEKS. You can't and I can't fix a trashy one decade lasting diet. You can't get from skinny to strong in four weeks. You can't get from obese to lean in four weeks. You didn't notice change after four weeks because your scale at home has the same high number?! YOU fail to understand that you are most likely GAINING MUSCLES and LOSING FAT at the same time so your job is to throw that scale away and take pictures of yourself every week.

Throw away all youtubers you know and just go to the gym and move things around. You don't need splits, routines, kcal counting, you need to get back to this gym and keep going.

I am not saying counting kcals, tracking protein intake, following a routine is bad. In fact all these things increase the time to reach goals if done correctly. But if you are exhausted and quit after four weeks cause counting kcal is exhausting, you hate every protein shake, you are following a routine you hate you will fail.

If you hate doing benchpresses find another exercise that is for your chest that you love. Who cares if benchpresses are better for chest if you won't do it the rest of your life while you love doing push ups but not doing them cause it's not in your routine.

Find one, only ONE exercise you like and stick to it. Forget about all those woobidoobi youtubers "Switch routine every 6 weeks" screw it. Do that forever if it makes you happy and makes you go to the gym regulary.

Don't scratch your whole nutrition and lifestyle just for a friggin' gym. In the end it took you (and me) a few years to get overweight or staying skinny. Forget people telling you to eat oat meal and bananas for breakfast if your bad diet was Pop tarts in the morning. You won't remove that habbit for longer than three months and eventually quit so keep eating it and go to the gym anyways. Worst case scenario is you won't gain weight but not lose weight. Not gaining weight is already a win (if obese). Worst case as a skinny dude is your not gaining muscles if not enough and being exhausted. Your body will tell you to eat if the scale isn't hint enough after a few weeks.

So get back. Don't quit. Most people in the gym are chill and honestly people quit and they don't even notice they achieved so much in four weeks.

One person started in January and told me last week he ain't seeing results. He showed me his routine and I told him: "Bro, you started Latpulldowns at 3x12 with 25 kg. You are ding 32,5 kg now..." 7,5 kgs more. He didn't see that as a positive result because his physic hasn't changed.

Normally not into this kind of genre (more thrash metal, stoner rock, punk) but this tune is the tune I need in the gym.

Hey,

I live in a small town in europe, built a house and well it takes me about 25 minutes to the next bigger city (not huge one, lets say 50.000 people live there.

I sometimes find myself getting frustrated because the next gym is 7 minute drive by car to another smaller town. Grocery shopping I also do in another town nearby. Same people, same stuff, nothing new.

I am thinking about selling my house but I love the quiet area too. I love my freedom in my house and yard and I know everyone in town but nobody has my interests.

I can't just go to board game nights, meet many people in a bar, go shopping, go to a cafe and all that. I always have to drive those 25 minutes first.

But would I do all those things I wrote above if I'd live in the city? A few friends live in that city and say everything is so expensive and they do the same as I do (same gym, same grocery, same routine) just in the city.

But I feel like I am missing out.

One of my favorite bands and underrated imo

Hey! I finished my nursing school about 12 years ago and worked on a ICU for about two years after nursing school as a RN.

Moved to a different country and now I am working at a facility for disabled people.

I work only nightshift and we have to be awake all night in case emergency but honestly, I never had an emergency. My clients sleep all night.

My base income is very high and in addition I get nightshift bonus, so I am getting a lot of money that isn't taxed at the end of the month either because in this country shift differential (night, sundays, holidays) isn't taxed.

I don't know I am doing this since two years and if I'd lay down on a couch no one would ever know.

Should I keep going or say something? My Nightshift coworkers don't do anything either but they just keep quiet. And if I am honest I think the dayshift doesn't do a lot either. Our clients really dont need a lot of assist... it's kind of weird getting paid for this job.

Hey this is weird topic but I have to ask other people about this.

I bought my Toyota Yaris back in 2011, a really simple small car I was able to buy in cash without going in debt.

I wanted to replace this car so many years ago but everytime I searched for new cars it was the wrong time. For example when I changed my job, I didn't want to go in debt. Or when Corona the prices skyrocket for simple cars I didn't want to replace it.

Now, 13 years later I am still driving this car and today ( I am from Germany) it got through TÜV again. Good for me, I can still drive it around. I once again dont want to buy a new car now anyways (just built a house, got no money and expensive asf here).

But now I am at a point I dont ever want to replace it ever again. I want to get this car through so many TÜVs as possible and use it til it just dies.

It transported me to my first shift as a nurse, to my first night shifts, it transported me through my cancer back in 2013, it transported me to my first flight ever in Frankfurt and back, it never let me hanging. Heck, we crashed into three animals (two dears and a rabbit), someone opened the door against us at a parking lot on accident, we failed many times in parking houses cause of failing to stop and go on "ramps"...

And this thing is still running good. It needed one new battery replacement in all these years.

I feel really bad if I give it up one day. I dunno, it somehow feels like I'd lose a good friend at this point. The car itself really sucks, its slow on highways, it's very loud, but come on.. its doing what it should.

Like I am giving up my identity. I can't give us up. I am at a point it's a "us" and "we" and not a car. It is me.

Yeah it can't get to 100 km/h in 3 seconds. In fact, it takes almost 15 seconds. But I'm fine and it's fine with it too. If someone would trade my car against a newer car I am really not sure if I'd do it. I'd honestly have to think about it a while. It's stupid because a new car would remove all my worries "what if it wont work tomorrow" but I'd still need time to think about it.

Is my behaviour somehow kind of pathological? Is this something really awkward? I am not even a "car" person. I couldn't care less what I drive...

I currently ain't in the position to replace it anyways, but in 2 or 3 years I will be and I am not sure if I will replace it or just try to get through the "TÜV" again and drive another few years.

I have friends that visit once a year from Berlin and Hamburg and every year they say: "Wow you are still driving that car?!" Yes, the seatbelt in the back has the green blue red marks that my friends drew on them when I picked them up from a party where they were totally drunk. My now wife (30 years old now) who was my girlfriend back then (17 years old) puked in that car when I picked her up from a party after my nightshift LOL.

This is insane because time flys... people I am saying it, time really flys.