I know a guy who took T for gains at one point in his life. He says it felt great at the time, he had more energy and his gains were amazing but now he doesn't naturally produce enough testosterone of his own and it's fucking his joints up in old age. His bone density is closer to that of a woman in his age group and one of his hands is essentially disintegrating.

His words, not mine.

Why would you seek somebody’s advice if you’re not willing to take it? Sure, I get the idea of wanting to be validated, but you also have to accept being told what you’re doing is wrong.

I think being a muscled bulky person is some kind of a glorified obesity.

We need to fight swolephobia

anon dislikes fat people

One of the cadavers in the cadaver lab operated by the school where I studied was a young (late 30s) male who died of a heart attack, the rest were all well above 65. The ventricles (spaces needed to pump blood) in this man’s heart had shrunk because his heart tissue had grown so large after using steroids. It’s important to know that steroids affect all muscles including the heart. People don’t usually consider the complications of prolonged use.

I took a ten week course of testosterone at a slightly higher dose than therapeutic (something like 175mg in a weekly IM injection). The most surprising aspect was psychological. I was 40 but I felt like a teenager again. Even at this dose, muscle mass noticeably increased. Fortunately didn't lose my hair or suffer any long term problems resuming normal T production. That risk increases with dose and duration on steroids. It only makes sense to use it at either low dose or short duration.

You can be a pumped soy boy. Many professional athleats are.