just ended up realising I'm not passionate about programming, it was the maths that i liked. plus the industry is horrendous, i had a corporate job for a bit and it left me completely jaded and not wanting to program for a wage ever again. i also felt generally a bit stunted from doing a pure stem education which I've been trying to make up for on my own time since.

I'm a different person but I personally have really hated how intricately connected all the STEM departments in my uni are to defense companies that come hire here.