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Vent here if you want.
(lemmygrad.ml)
You (collective) are here for me so much ^whether^ ^you^ ^want^ ^or^ ^not^, so I want to make sure you know I'm here for you too. If you have any vents and don't want to make a thread for them, I'm here. :3
I feel like that about my partner of almost 2 years too sometimes and it's horrifyingly anxiety inducing (I have that as an OCD theme). I think it's natural though (and common), it is a big commitment so your brain tries to protect you from possible harm. In the end, we will never know how it will go before we try (with our respective relationships) and this sort of future prediction attempts only prevents us from enjoying these changes in our lives to the fullest. Do you have some anxiety disorder by any chance?
Honestly, I think this is pretty normal. Commitment is scary because the future is long and there are many unknowns. I felt like this before I got married, and now I'm coming up on a decade with my partner.