I want to journal daily
It's really a cheat-code to discipline. I know it's a bit cliche, but just writing down your thoughts daily will really help you recalibrate somethings and it's one of those things that's truly zero cost (other than the time to do it and being honest with yourself if you count those as costs) and it's all benefit. You lose nothing and gain a lot by doing it.
keep up the language and exercise rigor
Which language are you learning? May I also ask for what reason? Just for fun? Or maybe to travel?
check some books off my reading list
I will always encourage everyone to hit up their local library and check out books. It gives a bit of an artificial time limit and for me at least it forces me to actually read the damn book.
find full time work.
Same brother. Same.
March was pretty solid in the LGOrcStreetSamurai part of the universe. I'm making strides in a lot of areas but I'm also realizing two things.
The first being how far I have to go to get where I want to be in terms of physique, mental acumen, reading, and generally all my goals. I have quite a long road ahead of me and it won't be easy either. I'm very glad I'm making progress, but it's one of those things you don't realize how far you are until you start moving towards something. Staying still in has been detrimental in the sense I stagnated a lot over the last couple of years and being in motion for a few months doesn't magically fix everything.
The second thing i realized was how bad a lot of areas of my life was. For example I didn't realize just how depressed I had been until i cleaned out my apartment and i realized I hadn't really cleaned it in months. Which is kind shameful in a sense but then again you don't think about your chains until you try and move. Yeah it sucks, part of breaking the chains yanking on them and hit them over rocks and all those sorts of things. I was really in a bad spot for a long time and i'm not quite out of it but I think people don't really realize how bad things are until you take account of conditions. Which is part of the reason I think people don't do it because it's really sad to see how shitty things are for real. Taking a honest and sober account of things makes you realize how fucked things are.
However, I see that an opportunity to at least start trying. Yes I'm in debt and unhappy and a host of other things, but i'm taking action to address them and actively doing better in a lot of ways so I'm very proud of myself in that sense. I'm also really happy that katz like @moonlake@hexbear.net do these weekly threads because I really benefit from knowing that internet people I will likely never ever know are also struggling and getting better too.