[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 17 points 2 days ago

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so difficult to lose a pet. I still have nightmares about losing my first real pet again.

[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 18 points 3 days ago

Time to lose insurance baybee

big-cool

[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 39 points 6 days ago

God why do the devs of STALKER have to be from Ukraine? Such great games

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I got a respiratory infection and got prescribed Prednisone to fight it. The Prednisone has been helping, but has made my symptoms of schizophrenia a lot worse, including dangerous mood swings and tweaky paranoia. Does anybody have any suggestions for dealing this this?

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Like holy shit, he was truly at a point in the grift that it was more comedic than anything. He just kept fucking going at every point, every time I read about something he said I laughed out loud. He was just so comically evil and transparent about it. Why can't we have any more funny grifters like him?

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submitted 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) by LeylaLove@hexbear.net to c/neurodiverse@hexbear.net

Hey, I'm Leyla, moderator of /c/drugs and very knowledgeable on shit people put into their bodies. Someone the other day made a post questioning if supplements actually do anything. I think this is a very good question, there's a lot of marketing BS behind vitamins and minerals, it's difficult to separate the useful from the useless (and if it's useless, it's probably harmful in some ways). While there is a lot of marketing that deludes information, some supplements and vitamins are still quite helpful and worth investing in. The ones that are worth it are normally pretty cheap too. I'll order these from most universally applicable to least universally applicable, meaning the stuff on the top will probably apply to you, while the stuff at the bottom will be for more specific issues. Obviously I'll specify the issues in the paragraphs. Also, while I will provide sources for what I say, I will say that a lot of this is lived experience.

Vitamin B12

In my opinion, Vitamin B12 is the most important thing you should go pick up. You can get a month or two's supply at the dollar store, and is the one I have personally seen make the most difference in both myself and people around me. Here's an abstract that mentions the side effects of B12 deficiency. To put it into more understandable words, B12 deficiency is known to cause

  • Apathy/Depression

  • Irritability

  • Dissociation

  • Insomnia

  • Low energy

  • Visual and auditory hallucinations

  • Paranoid delusions

  • Failing memory

  • There's also evidence that people with proper B12 supply in their body have lower rates of Alzheimers.

B12 deficiency has REALLY major side effects. This is especially true if you're a drinker or drug user, as most drugs (alcohol is a drug) run through B12 like crazy. However I know someone who is on the spectrum and fully straight edge (no drugs or alcohol besides caffeine pills), whose entire life and personality turned around after getting on B12. To be clear, I'm NOT saying B12 deficiency is sole cause of your issues in neurodivergence, but what I am saying is that B12 deficiency is enough to make those issues feel impossible to work through. Taking B12 regularly has reduced the amount I dissociate, I have way more energy and focus throughout the day, and my symptoms of schizophrenia have greatly improved. B12 didn't "cure" me being schizophrenic and autistic, I am who I am. But the effects of B12 deficiency were definitely weighing on me before I got back on it. If you only decide to pick up one thing from this guide, it should be this.

Edit: @LaGG_3@hexbear.net left a comment suggesting that vegans take extra care to take B12, as the diet is apparently low in B12. I'm not vegan so I can't speak from personal experience, but everything I look into seems to support this claim. If you question if you should take B12, the answer is you probably should. Worse case scenario, you just piss it out. Like I said, this isn't going to cure your depression and dissociation, but if you're struggling with those B12 certainly won't hurt.

@ReadFanon@hexbear.net wanted to add that if you're a whippit (nitrous) person, you extra need to be taking this or risk giving yourself MS via B12 deficiency. Seriously, drugs/alcohol users, take B12. I'm going back and adding this into every harm reduction guide I write because it's that important.

Magnesium

This is another one that's fairly cheap if you get the right one. Magnesium Oxide is dirt cheap and can be found at most dollar stores. If not, it's usually around $4 at grocery store pharmacies. Here's an NIH link on magnesium. To summarize the important parts of the link, magnesium deficiency is particularly common amongst

  • People with GI issues like Chron's or Celiacs (high comorbidity with neurodivergence)
  • People with diabetes
  • People who are chronic drinkers/drug users
  • Old people

The effects of magnesium deficiency are much less major than B12 deficiency, but still affect neurodivergent folk quite a bit. Chronic magnesium deficiency can cause major issues, but for the most part magnesium deficiency just makes you feel a baseline of sick with symptoms such as nausea/vomiting, and muscle weakness/fatigue. Full list of possible symptoms are as followed, with some marked as only being chronic issues

  • Nausea and vomiting
  • Low apetite
  • Muscle tension and weakness
  • Hypertension (high blood pressure, chronic issue)
  • People with chronically low magnesium have a higher rate of developing type 2 diabetes
  • People with migraine issues will have their issues made worse by magnesium deficiency

This isn't going to help mental issues directly, but it will help deal with physical symptoms that contribute to issues such as anxiety or irritability. The best thing I've learned going to AA meetings is ASPHALT (Anxious, stimulated, pain, hungry, angry, lonely, tired), an abbreviation that helps to check in on your physical and mental needs before you make any decisions. Magnesium helps quite a bit with the physical side of that list, it's also a CNS depressant so it can also help with anxiety, albeit not a silver bullet. Overall, if you're dealing with a lot of physical symptoms of anxiety such as a weak stomach or being shaky all the time, you should try magnesium.

One thing I will add to this is that other forms of magnesium are worth looking into. Personally, I prefer magnesium citrate, it seems to do better as a muscle relaxer. My B12 friend from the previous section loves magnesium taurate and vouches for that. Oxide is the cheapest pills you can get, but if you're really strapped for cash, I still haven't found a reason that unflavored/unscented epsom salt (straight magnesium) can't just be eaten. Edit: @ReadFanon@hexbear.net also wanted to mention that if you buy from local shops, you can buy the food grade stuff for real cheap, and that's safer than buying stuff for baths.

Vitamin D

The sun vitamin! Honestly we're on Hexbear, I could put this at the top of the list because of how little some of us go outside lol. Personally, I actually get very little from Vitamin D, but I know people that it did work quite well for. I'm probably able to absorb enough Vitamin D through the sun, but as I'll go into in the edit section, I'm not the rule. Vitamin D deficiency is known to cause

  • Depression
  • Fatigue
  • Bone pain
  • Muscle weakness/cramps

Most people I see taking Vitamin D are doing so as a supplement for depression, and I've seen it work for a few. Now personally? I still needed to get on an SSRI for my own mental health, it wasn't a silver bullet for depression. However, I did find that it helped quite a bit with fatigue and bone pain. Temporarily taking Vitamin D until I had the energy to go touch grass and get sunlight was helpful. This is one that I consider less important, but it certainly didn't hurt anything when I picked it up. The only reason I'm ranking it higher than some of the other solutions I'm about to list is because it's cheaper, and I've seen more testimony supporting it than other solutions

EDIT: @ReadFanon@hexbear.net has posted new information that makes part of what I said about Vitamin D inaccurate. Originally, I said if you get enough sun light during the day, you're probably fine, but ReadFanon provided an article that puts that into question. Like I said, I try to keep my posts as focused on my personal experience as possible, but I'm totally open to evidence that I'm wrong and will update my post accordingly. If you suffer from any of these symptoms, Vitamin D is cheap and worth giving a shot

Their specific comment because it's worth adding

I'm going to be a dissenting opinion on this based on this study and because it's my pet theory that the RDI for Vitamin D is lower than it should be.

If you're on a restricted diet/veg and you don't get a daily intake of Vitamin D rich/fortified foods then I'd strongly encourage you to consider supplementing this. Also kids - if you have kids then please supplement their Vitamin D intake because essentially it's understood that a lack of Vitamin D especially during childhood development is a major factor for developing multiple sclerosis later in life. A few dollars of prevention can save a ton of complications down the track.

L-theanine

This is the first weird one on this list, but I'm sure that the L-theanine users on this board can chime in and support it. L-theanine is the closest thing you can get to an anti-anxiety over the counter. This is the most expensive supplement on this list so far, but it's one that I can wholeheartedly recommend. It doesn't get you high, it just makes you less anxious and more relaxed. It's one of amino acids found in teas that make tea such a calming thing. If you're already a daily tea drinker, getting L-theanine might be redundant, but I personally prefer getting my L-theanine without caffeine. It's also helpful for sleep.

Edit: @Assian_Candor@hexbear.net gave some good advice on L-theanine, specifically on mixing it with caffeine. Comrade specifically suggests

Humble caffeine is missing from your list and is probably the most powerful OTC nootropic out there and has been a godsend for dealing with undiagnosed ADHD (one of these days I will work up the will to fill out the paperwork for testing .. I swear). Particularly when stacked with l-theanine at 1:2, which gives all the focus with none of the jitters. I would recommend taking l theanine standalone any time caffeine is ingested. If you have morning coffee and road rage on the way to work this advice is tailor made for you. 100/200 Combo pills are available out there for around 30c per dose

NAC

NAC is my most loaded suggestion here. For example, if you're a heavy drinker, don't even bother with it, it can make alcohol worse on your liver. But as someone who self medicated my neurodivergent traits with alcohol, downers, and cigs for a long time, NAC is insanely helpful for being off them. First off since I mentioned it, it helps quite a bit with the voice of addiction for cigs, alcohol and gabapentinoids. I don't find it helpful for other vices, but it's life saving for those addictions. It also helps quite a bit with my nail biting. NAC is chemically the closest thing to an actual downer on this list. It works to regulate glutemate (one of the downer parts of your brain) production by helping create other amino acids in your body that regulate it. This is especially good if you're recovering from long term downer use, such as getting off benzodiazapines or gabapentinoids. However, there is evidence that it's also helpful to people with schizophrenia and OCD separate from any previous drug use. If you self medicate with downers, I would definitely recommend doing more research into NAC, or you can leave a comment here with a question about it and I'll research it for you.

Conclusion

As always with my posts like these, if you have any questions, leave them in the comments. If I know the answer, I'll respond as soon as I see it, if I don't know the answer I'll research it and give you some sources to go along with it. I generally try to stick with my lived experience for answers though. There are a lot of supplements that are BS, and there are probably more that help that I didn't put in this list, so if you have anything you'd add, comment it and I'll edit the post to add it in <3

This can absolutely be done!

I'd strongly encourage people to veer towards Epsom salts that you buy from a homebrew shop or for tofu making as these will definitely be unscented but more importantly they will be food grade by necessity. I can get 9oz of food grade magnesium for $4 here and everything is expensive where I live. Sure I can get lower grade magnesium for $1.50/9oz but 250g (9oz) goes a long way when you're probably taking less than 0.5g a day; a 250g supply will last you in the vicinity of two years. Best to spend an extra couple of dollars here if you can spare it.

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submitted 2 months ago by LeylaLove@hexbear.net to c/games@hexbear.net

My favorite Pokemon youtuber released a Melee video. I didn't know I needed this until now

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My go to reference for this is Search Party. The first season is the most engaging TV I've ever seen, the second season is still pretty damn good, but then the show got picked up by HBO and became total shit for 2 seasons. Like god I fucking hated season 4 of that show.

As far as movies go, I gotta go with Shrek the Third. 1,2 & 4 are all great, but what the fuck was 3?

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For those who don't know (which I'd assume is most), FEARxNinetails is a Pokemon Gen 3 OU player that has been playing with the exact same shitty team for like almost a decade at this point. They're never toxic, and their team is just such a joy to see. The persistence is also respectable. It's a fairly small community of only a few thousand people, but with their ELO ranging so heavily they end up playing everybody eventually and today was my lucky day.

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submitted 3 months ago by LeylaLove@hexbear.net to c/games@hexbear.net

Ready to break my brain again. I can't think of anything else that's made me cry so much that I still love

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submitted 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago) by LeylaLove@hexbear.net to c/games@hexbear.net

I ended up making a donation last night because I had an idea for a pokemon that I wanted to see Jimothy try out and I've really wanted to see him play one of my pokemon for a while. But my ass fell asleep before I could even see the match. It was the calm mind rest serene grace Blissey. If anybody was actually watching the stream and knows about when I made the dono, I'd really appreciate it.

Edit: I found the clip. Turns out my pokemon was ass against the team he played it with :(

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Don't worry, I'm back on my anti-psychotic. I already feel much more balanced, albeit without as much energy. I went to therapy today and just told my therapist everything. Gotta say, she's a really good therapist. She had me fully think out why I don't like taking my ant-psychotic.

I've always struggled with understanding my feelings as someone on the spectrum. Schizoaffective makes this extra complicated, with lots of strong emotions but also mostly flat affect. Anti-psychotics dampen the emotions to the point it feels like I can't recognize them, because it seems like I can only recognize my emotions when they're extreme and overwhelming. She explained this to me by pointing out that I'm barely in touch with my physical needs like being hungry or needing to use the bathrom, so emotions So we're going to work on learning how to know how I'm feeling without being in the extremes. I think this will make it easier to stay on the meds from now on. Thank you all for the support last night, it really means a lot

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submitted 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago) by LeylaLove@hexbear.net to c/neurodiverse@hexbear.net

I have schizophrenia, a condition that fights itself being treated. I do pretty well on the meds. I'm pretty happy on the meds. But I still want to just abandon them and go all the way into being an addict until death. Part of me just doesn't want to do well. No matter how solid the solid becomes, I feel this deep need for these massive good and bad swings. I don't just need the highs of the psychotic mania, I need the lows too. A part of me wants to eat my hand again.

I've gone about a week without my anti-psychotic. I'm kinda split on whether or not I should take it tonight. I know this may seem like too much, but please convince me to take my meds

[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 54 points 8 months ago

The benadryl and ambien subreddits were amazing, genuinely the things I miss the most from Reddit. The only truly funny drugposters

[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 49 points 8 months ago

Xvideos is huge worldwide. Back in my teen years, I literally casually learned Spanish on there while I was jerking off. I told everybody I learned my Spanish by working in a kitchen with Spanish speaking people, but those people had no fucking clue where I got the Spanish

[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 53 points 9 months ago

If this solider's actions aren't praxis, posting isn't either. Lib

[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 90 points 10 months ago* (last edited 10 months ago)

Olive oil being a struggle session is just so frustrating to me. As someone who has a deep love for food and cooking, it hurts quite a bit to see how the internet has pretty much re-birthed cooking snobbery in this entirely new way. I am an exceptionally knowledgeable cook, having worked in a million different types of places and even fully running a place for a little bit, lots of research into food science and such. I like the nerdy side of cooking that the internet has brought out, but the snobbery of olive oil's smoke point is a great example of when it starts just getting into re-establishing french style elitism based on racism and classism that has kept the true heroes of culinary history out of the public eye. Most of the great dishes we have, some of the smartest food practices around today, were made by illiterate, uneducated slaves and workers, and those people broke a ton of culinary "rules". Modern internet cooks stand on the shoulders of giants and spit on them. The guy who invented modern barbecue ribs was an illiterate slave making food for his owner, where his owner took credit for everything he did. It wasn'

One of the first widespread foods that had a sauce purposefully stabilized was creole Gumbo, which used okra, a veggie brought over from Africa. The only people who had okra at the time were black people brought to America via the slave trade. However, people like to credit the french with sauce stabilization through rouxs because the french could put it on paper and the slaves couldn't. It's why we see white people essentially try to claim Creole food by making some changes and calling it cajun, and they do it by legitimizing and de-legitimizing certain techniques.

Or how historically, Central America uses very little oil in their cooking, preferring the flavor of char over a maillard reaction done with oil. Now the delicious food of Central America is being lost over time because cooks are listening to these online people and replacing unique flavor elements from their cultures with french cooking practice. THAT is why white people can't make tacos, it's literally because they're cooking like white people and have had "cook everything in oil" drilled into them from the start of their cooking. It would be one thing if food was just changing with the times, people having different palettes, but that's not the case, otherwise those gentrified white people taco shops would be a hit amongst Hispanic people.

I see the whole olive oil debate, and similar discussions as a way to dismiss cooks with unique techniques and their food. People saying you can't fry in olive oil are implicitly saying that pretty much the entire middle east and medeterranian were just burning absolutely everything they cooked until white people made canola oil. It's re-establishing elitist cooking standards with bad information. So everybody's food is becoming more and more tasteless, more Americanized, switching to more neutral oils, all in the name of "not burning" something that isn't even actually burning. It's annoying.

[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 97 points 10 months ago* (last edited 10 months ago)

It's so fucking funny because if these people knew as much about culinary as they claim to know, they know there are many dishes that are in fact fried in olive oil. The smoke point discussion is pop science going too far in food. Kenji did an article about this. If these dumbass food nerds spent more time reading and actually cooking rather than arguing with people online, they would know how shit actually performs and how to actually cook. But instead we have a bunch of people who nerded the fuck out when The Menu came out, without realizing that they are Tyler, not the Chef.

So yeah, fry things in olive oil if you want them to taste like olive oil. Don't use olive oil if you don't want it to taste like olive oil shrug-outta-hecks

Edit: Adding this because I think some of you fuckin libs need a theory lesson

Mao in Oppose Book Worship

I. NO INVESTIGATION, NO RIGHT TO SPEAK

Unless you have investigated a problem, you will be deprived of the right to speak on it. Isn't that too harsh? Not in the least. When you have not probed into a problem, into the present facts and its past history, and know nothing of its essentials, whatever you say about it will undoubtedly be nonsense. Talking nonsense solves no problems, as everyone knows, so why is it unjust to deprive you of the right to speak? Quite a few comrades always keep their eyes shut and talk nonsense, and for a Communist that is disgraceful. How can a Communist keep his eyes shut and talk nonsense?

It won' t do!

It won't do!

You must investigate!

You must not talk nonsense!

...

III. OPPOSE BOOK WORSHIP

Whatever is written in a book is right — such is still the mentality of culturally backward Chinese peasants. Strangely enough, within the Communist Party there are also people who always say in a discussion, "Show me where it's written in the book." When we say that a directive of a higher organ of leadership is correct, that is not just because it comes from "a higher organ of leadership" but because its contents conform with both the objective and subjective circumstances of the struggle and meet its requirements. It is quite wrong to take a formalistic attitude and blindly carry out directives without discussing and examining them in the light of actual conditions simply because they come from a higher organ. It is the mischief done by this formalism which explains why the line and tactics of the Party do not take deeper root among the masses. To carry out a directive of a higher organ blindly, and seemingly without any disagreement, is not really to carry it out but is the most artful way of opposing or sabotaging it.

[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 85 points 1 year ago

Holy shit, these people are STILL on Anita Sarkeesian?

[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 51 points 1 year ago

I haven't watched Firefly in quite a while, but I generally agree with your criticism. I think the western-ness could have been really interesting if the show had more to say about colonialism, but it doesn't. The show makes fairly milquetoast observations about the west and does very little with them. They're just a cool backdrop to Wheadon. Sci-fi as a genre is one of the few genres I do not think normal libs are capable of writing well. Sci-fi is based in rejecting the status quo, dreaming of a new, better future. Post-modernist irony has essentially ruined lib's abilities to do this. They recognize the American war machine as awful, they recognize a million different issues in the world. But we're widely met by snarky apathy on these subjects, where what's wrong in the world is an unchangeable constant that we shouldn't exert energy fighting against. Plus, being within the imperial core takes away from their ability to even percieve persecution. They can imagine vaguely dystopian future, but can't imagine good enough backing to make the world anything more than a YA book like Divergent. All they make is a hellish world with very little resolve, with no real solutions. The lack of resolve can work, but libs generally don't like it in their stories. I could get into signifiers at this point, but I don't want to.

George Lucas is actually a good example of this. While I don't think he's a socialist, the rebellion fighters of the Star Wars universe were apparently modeled after the Vietnamese fighting American invasion. For all of the questionable implications made throughout the movies, one thing is clear. The imperialists are the bad guys, people fighting for self determination are the good guys. Even though the empire is almost an unstoppable force the rebels will pretty much never take down, Star Wars argues that fighting that hell is the resolve and it is worth it. True freedom in the Star Wars universe isn't making peace with the unstoppable force, or just arbitrarily overthrowing it with good guys. It's about fighting for your stake in the world around you. There is still a resolve here. There is still understanding of who would be on the bottom or top in the sci-fi realm

Let's compare this to what I'd call bad lib sci-fi. Divergent is fucking ASS. People are arbitrarily split into 5 groups based on a single personality trait from birth, but there are some people who have all 5 personality traits and they're DANGEROUS!!! It's arbitrary sci-fi, there's no world where this makes sense. Classes are completely arbitrary, almost ignored. Race is also ignored. In divergent, scifi becomes an aesthetic, a signifier of what it really is. It fundamentally misunderstands what sci-fi is at its heart and leans into what people think sci-fi is. I think this is why Wheadon moved onto Marvel

[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 53 points 1 year ago

I actually see Seth MacFarlane as a (mostly) decent person, with much of the humor in Family Guy being the fault of postmodernism and irony melting American brains. Family Guy makes a lot of trashy jokes, but I think the intent of them is to laugh at American culture rather than whatever stereotypes they're joking about. I even think he's kind of moved past it, since he's essentially just been leveraging Family Guy just to get to make his Star Trek show.

Idk, I've learned to set aside people's more problematic aspects as long as they kick their heels in where it really matters. Standing with the writers every time, even back in 2007 when it caused Family Guy to get entirely dropped by Fox. This isn't even him just doing it because he had nothing to lose. He almost lost Family Guy over this. I will almost always respect people putting their money where their mouth is.

[-] LeylaLove@hexbear.net 130 points 1 year ago

Will never get over how much of a joke this trial was. Bro essentially got the Casey Anthony luck and is still whining about it being too much lol

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