I really struggle to make friends and being an adult trying to make friends is even worse than when I was a kid in school.

It appeared that I had made a friend but they turned out to be kinda toxic. I made mistakes too but I never tried to hurt them or manipulate them. They've made me feel like they're embarrassed to know me. Like our friendship had to be a secret.

Now, I finally managed piss them off that they don't want to talk to me anymore. Part of me is glad but part of me feels lonely. Very lonely.

I've been in a long distance relationship for quite some time now and we are waiting for her to finish school next spring before we move in together. It's difficult for me to think that's really going to happen. She reassures me often that it will.

I should be happy with that but nothing beats seeing a friend face-to-face regularly and talking to each other.

I feel sad and lonely and selfish. I don't want to hurt myself but I do kinda wish I was dead.

Is there a way to download or otherwise use Brainscape flashcards without paying (imo) high subscription prices for their "brain science"?

I'm going to see what I can do on my own but I'm low skill so any help would be appreciated.

TIA!

I bought a pair of hypoallergenic pillows a couple of weeks ago and immediately started having a reaction to them. I washed them and no change.

I looked at what they're made from and I think it might be the Lyocell Tencel in the cover - made from eucalyptus trees.

Everything else about them is the same - afaik - as my other pillows.

Anyone else experience this or know anything about it?

I've been lurking here for a while, trying to learn and set up my own stuff. I'm starting off with music. I have a few thousand files in different formats and plenty of duplicates.

I already have an Emby server set up and it works very well.

However, is there a music manager that will help me find and eliminate duplicates?

I'm using Linux Mint and I'm still figuring out how to set up the various users and groups so that the software can access where my music is stored.

I'm thinking Lidarr but - as mentioned - something about setting up users and a media group and doing the permissions is not clicking.

For Emby to work, I've made the music directory a shared location and opened guest access.

Any pointers to step by step guides on any of this would be very helpful as well.