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I was just wondering why we hadn't heard more about this when it happened like a month ago. I guess the people putting stories front and center don't want to fuel the trend.
uh yeah we do magic 
CW suicide, family tragedy
My brother killed himself today. Shot himself in the head hours ago. Bought a gun from a pawn shop yesterday and because he lived in Texas there was no background check necessary.
My brother was not well, had not been well for many years, maybe his whole life. He had extreme mental health issues, which were glaring and obvious especially in the last several years. His parents let him down, and of course this dogshit society let him down every step of the way. And I let him down, too, though I had many reasons that I won't get into, I still of course feel like I should have done more. I didn't think he was going to do this, though. I talked to him like an hour before he did it. It was an unsettling call, but not any more so than previous calls, and he didn't indicate that he was considering self harm. I still told my mom that the call was concerning, and she talked to him after I did, but it wasn't enough. He needed help, it was obvious. I told my parents and I told medical professionals on multiple occasions, but no one got him the help he needed, if such help existed in any kind of affordable form. I looked into it a while ago, but it was all so obtuse and I didn't really know what course of action was best. I know now that I should have pushed harder to help him, and if he indicated that self-harm was being considered, I know I would have. But now I can't.
I wonder if he thought that I wouldn't care if he did it. It would be a reasonable thought, since I have tried my best to distance myself from my family for my own mental and physical health. But even after having minimal contact with him for more than a decade, and even after all the terrible and violent things he did and tried to do to me, and even with how successfully I've deadened my ability to feel things, it's still hitting me hard.
And I keep thinking about how this disgusting, vile world could and should have done better for him. It should have been easy for him to get help. He shouldn't have been able to get a gun. There should be a facility that could have given him the long-term, real help he needed, free of charge. And on a more specific level, my parents should have intervened and gotten him serious help, both as a child and as an adult, especially as they were both very involved with him still.
He had a very tragic life, and now that's all it will ever have been. Like the rest of us, he deserved a better world. Instead we have this... and I have a dead brother.
"Oh cool a video about the depressing state of society in South Korea, I'm sure this will shine a light on the country's sad history and its revolting exploitation as a puppet state of the imperial United States!" 
doesn't mention the war at all, doesn't discuss the role of the state in maintaining the current hegemony, solely blames shitty Korean corporations for their societal woes and says that it should serve as a warning to "the west" - the very entity which is to be blamed for its existence to begin with
Slugma doesn't deserve this disdain
so these guys are literally just mass murdering people with these decisions but if you even talk about how even one person responsible for this should probably die it's illegal
am I getting that right
this has me exactly 50/50 between "this is the funniest shit I have ever seen in my life" and "neither I nor anyone else should ever see this, I am logging out forever"
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Anyone here playing Pantheon: Rise of the Fallen?
(hexbear.net)
Now... I'm gonna try to create this post while letting only very, very little of my TITANIC rant about the death of immersion in MMORPGs leak out.
I hadn't heard of this game until today, I saw it on Steam, saw that it was an MMORPG, saw that it actually had really good reviews, and that peaked my interest. I'm an old school WoW player, by which I mean I played Vanilla WoW when it was current (though I started playing in 2005/2006 when I was not yet an adult), but I am unlike quite a lot of other WoW players in that what I miss the most about the early round of MMORPGs is that the key ingredient of those games, of the whole genre, was that they were meant to be a much more immersive kind of video game.
These days you can't even say the word around most MMO players without them mocking you for it.
So then I see this game Pantheon, and it's obviously inspired by early MMOs, but it seems like most of the focus is on its tactical, social combat system. Don't get me wrong, that's a good thing of course, but an MMORPG should be radiating personality, it should be inviting to lose yourself in the depths of its setting. Meanwhile, this game seems seriously lacking in any kind of distinct atmosphere; almost the models, monsters, buildings, environments I saw look stiff, bland, and entirely lacking their own character. The list of playable races: 
is almost entirely stale as fuck cookie cutter fantasy shit (I'm so goddamn tired of "human, human with pointy ears, short human, even shorter human") and so these things are a pretty big turn off for me.
Basically I'm trying to find out if anyone here plays it, likes it, and could sell me on it, because if it actually is good, it would be nice to have something good to play. Especially while being in need of distraction right now.
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Comrade_Mushroom
joined 7 months ago
"state power as a means to reshape society"
Viewing this as a bad thing is a glaring admission that you already don't think of your governing entity as something which is in the service of the people it governs; like shouldn't you want your leaders to be pulling society in a positive direction, if you believe that's the point of this dogshit system? And if not, what are you suggesting instead, mother fucker?
The state already has its tendrils in fucking everything, not just in this society but in all societies, it's fucking obvious and blatant as shit dude, I swear I will never understand people who will watch like The Bourne Identity or whatever and be like "dang the US government is fucked up and scary!" and then once they shut the TV off they're like "dang I sure hope the US government beats the evil Chinese dictatorship!"