I know generations are idealistic nonsense, but I unironically think boomers and gen X both are dealing with a permanent midlife crisis.
Some boomers seem to have this forever young mentality, and seem to resent actual young people slightly out of a sense of envy. Youth is the one thing millennials and gen Z have that they don't, and they wish they could literally steal it from them. So the closest thing they can do is make everything a luxury for the rich and clog up all the jobs to keep millennials and younger fighting tooth and nail for McDonalds jobs well into their 30s and have to live with their parents....because how DARE they ever get the spotlight and not them?
This isn't because their boomers, but I think that loads of propaganda has made this naked attention grubbing crabs-in-a-bucket mentality normalized among them.
I made some curry for lunches next week! I can feel some of my palate improving because I felt myself craving fresh fruit and not processed slop. Watermelon and pineapples are so good! I love them! Now I want to explore some more umami non-meal things to eat that aren’t a processed snack.
I unfortunately had some wine over the weekend but it was with my folks so I consider that slip worth it.
Getting into the process of finding a therapist now that I have my first paycheck. I’m going to try CBT and see if I can finally start meds for ADHD.
I had an interview for a place out of Ohio that went pretty well, and with some luck I can get a temporary job for me to build residency in a more progressive state and also be closer to some friends to boot! The great satan is cringe but there’s some parts that aren’t all that bad, especially with friends.
I would also like to try some more experiences so I can find a job I think I will thrive in. ADHD sucks because it makes me so easily bored by everything even though I know by now that almost everything is an acquired taste and not something I will instantly fall in love with because it’s my destiny. I’m a bloody Marxist and I still don’t let myself analyze even the non-political with dialectics. Shit sucks.