As someone suffering from PTSD (not yet officially diagnosed), schizophrenia and psychosis (officially diagnosed), sometimes I have trouble controlling my actions. I sent a bunch of hate mail to my past teacher because she bullied me in the past. I believe it was racially motivated since I was Asian, though when she acted she was clever enough to do it with plausible deniability. When I got arrested the police commented on how broad my shoulders were, and put me on two handcuffs instead of one. My efforts in gym-celling have paid off. Doing all those pull ups and stuff has rewarded me with stronger muscles.

Doing drugs (synthetic marijuana), getting arrested, going to a psych ward... I'm living the full American dream.

I suspect that all of the trauma from the bullying made me develop mental illnesses. I used delta-8, a drug, to cope but it made it worse.

I've been to a psych ward multiple times now, to the point where it nearly bankrupted my parents. I've thought of suicide many times before to atone for my sins, so I'll be less of a burden.

It's no wonder that in a toxic environment, I would grow up to become a damaged human. I have to leave America as soon as possible.

The American gamble has failed me. This country is a shitty investment.

One thing that shocked me a bit, or maybe I should've expected this, was that my white attorney was buddy-buddy with the prosecutor. It was nepotism in full view. It felt so wrong, even though this was to my advantage. Originally, I was going to ask a black attorney to represent me in court, but my Father stopped me and told me to hire a white lawyer instead. I thought that it would've been fine if it was a black person. How could I have been so naive. Once again, I am reminded here in America, of how white supremacy works. I've been secluded in my NEET cave for so long that I've forgotten the fundamentals of this country's workings. Now that I've realized it. Yeah, black lawyers would face an unfair level of play in the justice system.

They say that he who creates AGI will control the entire world. I wouldn't want America to dominate earth with their misaligned AI.

warrant on me for harassment. Is this guy real? It's been four months and nothing has happened...