I tend to hyperfixate. Every mistake I make or goal I don't immediately achieve can become a weapon I use against myself. I have spent hundreds of hours in therapy. Meditation can help but it is really hard for me to get started.

I injured my knee a few years ago and after trying arnica and a bunch of other drugs to manage the inflammation the PA told me to try smoking weed. Within a week the inflammation was under control and I discovered meditation was MUCH easier for me after smoking.

Now I know when I start to beat myself up I use my vape pen. Two puffs and 25 minutes later I will be able to slow down and mindfully check in with myself.

I start with some breathing. First slow breathes, then even breaths, then box breaths. After breathing I do a body scan, I start at my toes and work my way to my face. Then I feed my thought to a candle for a bit and imagine watching them turn into smoke.

Within half an hour the vape pen will be wearing off and I won't be able to stay in that state but I will be a lot nicer to my self and my family. Over the last 6 months I have lost 25 lbs and put together a new plan to find a new career, I am a few weeks away from my first certification since 2008 and have set up a new resume. I am making plans for the future and genuinely optimistic about my own life.

Pot and meditation have done what endless therapy and fists full of medications could not. I am in control of my own thoughts and feelings. I am able to make plans and follow through with plans that spawn months. I am in control of what and when I eat and sleep. I am a normal ass adult with responsibilities I actually attended to.

Thank you so much <3

He was perfect. My partner had him since he was a baby, and I’ve been with my partner for about 13 years. He was an icon of our house. It’s weird not having him, but so comforting that most of his life was cuddling, purring like a mad man, and eating like fancy food.

None, I live on the hook. No rent, no slip fees.

I use a private PO box from a company that specializes in Dockside Services in Seattle / Ballard Wa. address, mail, ID, etc etc services for roamers. I have them forward to a temp address or General Delivery wherever I'm at. I also can use the Amazon lockers / Wholefoods, but I try to as little as possible. Outside of the US it gets a little trickier.

That early-to-mid-game hump takes out a lot of players. Every resource takes Dup time and every Dup needs more resources - the balance takes practice and some math. Then the Spaced Out DLC came out so we could have that same hump several times in the same game... and I love it.

Most of my colonies end between 2000 and 5000 in game days (I don't bother to "finish" the game anymore) when I've got so much tech-debt the colony has become a chore instead of a game. Or one time when I tried to run all my Spaced Out bases on nuclear, only to discover there's not enough asteroid generation to support that many reactors long term.

That is very cool. I haven't paid much attention to Minecraft (or its mods) in the several last years, but I may have just gotten the itch to play again.