Update: Thank you all so much. Sorry I had to vent with a sad post.

I buried him in the shade of a cherry tree. Rest easy pal.

Four years as a dog with what looks like a fulfilled and happy life is not something you should feel bad about. You were a true friend to him.

Every photo, I see a happy pooch. Four years isn’t as long a time as some others get but you can see that his time alive was good. You made him as happy as he made you, and that’s all we can hope for with the limited time we get.

RIP little friend.

My condolences, looks like you gave him a great life. Super cute pics.

solidarity in your sorrow, comrade.

Please forgive yourself.

oh god, this post is making me tear up. I am really sorry for your loss, I'm glad you got to make some fun memories together.

Beautiful pup, so sorry for your loss comrade

I lost my best friend and first "dog I adopted as an adult" a few weeks ago and it was so hard. Something that surprised me was how much comfort I took in people offering sympathy. You gave him a good life and loved him every day. May we all be so lucky

Oh little pupperino. Sorry for your loss, he looks magical.

He had a wonderful life. Of all the hundreds of people to walk past him, you gave him that, and that's all that matters.

Rest in power little dude. 😢

I'm so sorry comrade, I wish I could say it gets easier

He looks so happy in the pictures

rest in power furry little comrade

Sounds like you two had a good time together. Rip lil guy

What a good dog! He looks like a Jack Russel cross, maybe with Maltese? He was very cute!

I'm sorry he's no longer with you. He looks like he had a happy time together.

You can really see how loved he was in those pictures. I'm sure he had 4 good years because of you and I'm sure he knew he was loved. I'm so sorry for your loss and know how hard it is.

I lost my dog of 14 years just a few weeks ago. He apparently had cancer and was hiding it until he couldn't. It was very sudden and still very painful. I'm trying to find a good picture for his urn but it's still too hard. I think I'm going to write him a letter to process my feelings, sort of like you've done here. My condolences again.

I need to go hug my old girl. My condolences comrade

He looks like a good dog

condolances comrade, it looks like he enjoyed a fun, safe life with you

makes me sad my dog isn't as cool

Four good years is a lot to be thankful for

Been where you at, absolutely tore myself up inside because I felt like I was forced to choose to kill my life companion and best friend of thirteen years via euthanization over letting him suffer endless seizures until he painfully passed away naturally. it really hurts for years and still does now somewhat just thinking about it. I don't really have much to say besides give yourself time to really let yourself go in grieving and reminiscing when you have moments of quiet to yourself.

He seems like a really good dude. It's easy to tell you two had something special. I'm really sorry for your loss.

The first dog my partner and I adopted passed 2 years ago. He was similar to your buddy - he always wanted to do what we were doing. He had a few favorite people and hated literally everyone else.

Honestly, he was a real shit head that caused us a ton of anxiety (soooo aggressive despite our best efforts), but he was our shit head. I don't miss the anxiety of walking him but I miss everything else, even the sometimes-scary stuff. He was full of surprises and kept them coming until his last days.

Sorry for hijacking, just been thinking about him a lot the last few days.

I wish there was something we could say to make things easier for you. I'm sure he felt all the love you have for him every day. He sounds like a hoot.

Rest in peace, friend.

He looks like he was a happy pupper

I'm sorry comrade

Rest easy sweet pupper - and best wishes OP. Loss is hard.

CW: Vaguely sharing my own to empathise. Put vaguely - time dulls all pains, and we grow.

It is so hard, and I feel for you deeply. He has passed, but your love for each other will never cease.

I'm so sorry for your loss, you most certainly gave him the best life he could have ever dreamed of. I lost my best friend and sidekick last week. The adjustment to life without them is so hard, i hope you have some supportive people around you. Feel free to DM if you want someone to talk to.

i'm sorry for your loss OP. i also befriended a dog and lost her way too soon. honestly it really fucked me up, i wanted a dog my whole life. at 29 i finally was at a point in my life where i felt able to take care of a dog. the previous owner didn't tell me about certain medical problems she had, and the options were either put her down or let her suffer til she dies possibly in 2 months, possibly in 2 years. i had to have her put down. it was the hardest choice i've ever had to make in my life. she meant so much to me. she just loved me and didn't want anything from me

Doesn't look like you let him down to me. Looks like you gave him years of happiness and comfort and love. RIP to a real one, I didn't know him but I miss him already